je t'aime..<3

Univ Life

2009-10-25T17:46:00.001-07:00

busy.busy.busy.

will come back to do a better entry.

~acetylsalicylate

~simplicity...

2009-10-07T23:11:00.004-07:00

once upon this life,
fate snatched me away from you
and i could do nothing
but write :

'..in the silence of this deep isolation
amidst the opposing force of the doubting crowd
across the miles of open ocean between us..

i cast to you this faithful oath of unending love
and vow that this word be invulnerable of change
this i pledge with my sincere and genuine heart

i contemplate for your content in my reverent arms
though my physical self is not within your sight
and my arms not in touch with your most perfect skin

i hope that our love is already sufficient,
moreso abundant for both of us..'

and alas, fate has predestined our side..

at the present moment we are inseparable..

and our love,
has emerged victorious on fate's small test
not only did it survive, but it grew..
among the silences of our simplicity

hmm sinulat ko ung 2nd at 3rd stanzas nung nasa pinas pa ako,
medyo dinagdagan ko lang siya ngayon ngayon..:D

credits for image?click me

~acetylsalicylate

Graduation?

2009-06-26T21:04:00.003-07:00

hmm, it was a nice and happy graduation..i didn't expect it to be that big of a thing..but time sure flies soo fast, and i didn't even realize it was coming..

the graduation started at 7pm ended at around 9, then we had an after grad party at science world where we just played, danced, ate..made memories.. =] and oh we watched a hypnotist show and it was so funny and amazing..not sure if id believe it 100% though. the party started at 11:30om til 6 the next morning, and I'm deprived of sleep, since i didn't go home til 12pm coz i spent half of the day with my love ♥

anyways though im tired..i'm happy and proud..i'm gonna miss this school..

^^

~acetylsalicylate

drabble 5

2009-05-17T23:00:00.003-07:00

life has never been this happy since YOU came and made all the difference.
=]

~acetylsalicylate

drabble 4

2009-05-13T21:12:00.001-07:00

i.freaking.love.YOU

~acetylsalicylate

my mind has turned cancerous..

2009-04-09T20:38:00.003-07:00

..i think, because it reverted back to its embryonic state..undifferentiated.
wala akong maisip na iba kundi siya lang.

my mind has amnesia..
..i think, because my memory was erased.
nakakalimutan ko lahat ng gagawin ko pag nakikita ko siya.

my mind has a tumor..
..i think, because there appears to be a lump.
ang laki kasi ng space na naooccupy niya sa utak ko.

^____^
XD sorry na wala magawa..

~acetylsalicylate

errrr.

2009-04-09T20:36:00.001-07:00

try mo nga makarinig ng @#%$*+! araw araw.
sakit sa tenga nu?
XD

~acetylsalicylate

wala lang.

2009-03-15T01:57:00.006-07:00

ahehe di maganda ang camera ko.
at pati na yung mga angle.

pero di ko lam bat ko to pinost. XD
nagandahan lang ako sa mga ilaw..
mga 12midnight na yan, galing ng work.
kakababa ko lang ng bus tas naglalakad na papuntang apartment.=]

~acetylsalicylate

on-the-spot poem writing.

2009-03-12T22:28:00.006-07:00

situation : nasa harap ako ng laptop, at kausap ko si anna sa phone.
nagpapaturo siya ng chemistry. XD

*on the phone*
tumatawa si anna. LOL
me : ui huminga ka naman..
anna : *laughs*
after ng mga 30 seconds, nagtanong na siya..tapos, nasagutan na namin.
tapos, silence.
*break*

ehem. eto na..serious post.
bagong poem po:

your smile makes my day,
your stare takes my breath away,
your touch tells me more than you can say.

*picks up the phone*
nag-usap kami tungkol sa mga bagay na walang kinalaman sa chem. mahaba eh auko na isulat dito.
tapos. tumawa na naman si anna.
*takes a break*

tapos..
continuation na po ulit nung poem.

your laugh sweeps me off my feet,
your voice makes my heart skip a beat
,.......................
.....................
..............
.........
......
...
..
(waa wala ako maisip na next)

*puts the phone on speaker mode*
me : oist isip ka nga ng isa pang word..related sa smile, stare, touch, laugh at voice..
anna : hmm..wala ako maisip eh.
me : dali na..
anna : eh..
me : plsss?
anna : sige iisip ako..pero bukas na.
me : haha. ok.
*turns the speaker mode off*

so dahil wala pa po yung isang word, di pa yan tapos.
=]
sorry ang gulo nito.
mahirap kasi magmulti-task eh.
^____^

~acetylsalicylate

TWIST.

2009-02-18T23:01:00.005-08:00

well I am not exactly sure,
but at this particuler moment, I'm experiencing a new force of attraction..

I never thought I would be able to fall in love again..because up to now, my heart hasn't even recovered from its last shatter.

I hope that this time, this love is right..for both of us.
*sigh*

~acetylsalicylate

my melancholy.

2009-02-05T20:37:00.007-08:00

"no matter how much pain I utilize for moving on,
that pain is a reminiscient of the past.
that past reminds me that I have fallen so miserably in love with you.."

this is the reason why I return to the start of the cycle over and over again, and not really get anywhere.

this particular cycle kills me every single day of this life,
and yet it is ironic that he is my survival.

~acetylsalicylate

poem-poeman

2009-02-01T01:06:00.006-08:00

lawl..bigla ko naclick ung archives ko ng July 2006, tapos nakita ko yung post ko na may 'it's been monday..' tas nagandahan ako sa sinulat ko dun..kaya lang kailangan pa ng improvement kaya gagawin ko na siyang poem.
^^

It's been a long while since I talked to you..
but I thank God for every day
that I see you in my way.
I can't help but smile,
when your shiny eyes meet mine.
I admit that I think of you
in every second my mind permits me to.

keeping in touch with reality,
I always find myself walking to where you are.

At almost everywhere I look,
your face is the one I imagine.

When someone speaks of your name,
I can't help but look over, and feel something within me.

I've always wanted to say these things to you,
but when I look at your face,
something in your stare makes me stop,
as if the whole world is not turning when I'm with you.

I don't even want to move,
I just want to stare back at you.

~>.. well yan lang muna, dudugtungan ko na lang ulit pag nafeel ko na ulit yung 'lutang' tulad niyan..
para kasing ang mature ko na ngayon na bihira na kong kiligin.
o wala lang talaga yung taong nakakapagpakilig sakin? =]]

~acetylsalicylate

Illness during exam.

2009-01-27T10:27:00.006-08:00

I've been sick since Friday last week. It started with a little cough, and because of the stress induced by work and school, that cough evolved to fever.

*sigh* Maybe this body is not taking the essential nutrients, or maybe it is because of the weather.

Or maybe it is just me who thinks too much.

It was really irritating when I took my English Provincial yesterday. That test can be compared to how I valued UPCAT back then, because that is the obstacle I need to overcome to enter a university.. But damn, I was horribly sick that day. Nevertheless, I did the best that I could do, and it turned out okay anyway.

I don't know about the last part, wherein we have to write an original composition about a certain topic. It can be persuasive, expository, descriptive or narrative. I chose to write a narrative, because during class my best essays were the narrative ones. The topic is "Happiness can be found in unlikely circumstances", which is uberly a cliche, and I wrote a love story, and until the last minute I kept thinking if I should end it happily or tragically. They said the essay has to be unpredictable, and if I ended it happily it would be just the same as any other. If I ended it sadly, the marker of my test might get frustrated and I will end up with a 0..of course I'm kidding but maybe he/she won't like a sad ending.

I wrote a tragic ending, maybe because I was feeling ill..or I dont know...maybe I feel like writing some evil. /gg

....Image not mine, I found it here.

~acetylsalicylate

P.S. The male lead's name is Mark and the female's is Denise. LOL

drabble

2009-01-15T00:57:00.005-08:00

so pag kasi bored ako, I go to Yahoo Answers.com at nagsasagot ako ng mga questions under Science and Mathematics, mainly under Physics at Chem.

at since kaka-gawa ko lang ng analysis ng isang poem, wala pa sa utak kong magcompute.
I came through a question asking what will happen to the frequency if the mass of the pendulum is doubled, i was like..waa? may formula yun diba..

I remember na first lesson yun sa Advanced Physics nung 4th year, so I just had to get my notebook and the answer will come in a whiff(and yes dala ko dito lahat ng 4th year notebooks ko.=])

at di yun na, na-amaze ako sa liit ng sulat ko dati, dahil ngayon ang laki na niya.

Turns out na mass does not affect the frequency of the oscillator, it is the length of the string na nag-aaffect dun. wahaha, what a silly answer na kailangan ko pang kunin yung notebook ko.

But I am glad I did. I scanned through every page of my notebook, I even closed my eyes and shortingly went to the past..lukot na yung mga pages kasi nagmamadali mag-memorize ng formula, may random line sa may mga words kasi nabunggo ka ng classmate mo at naislide mo yung ballpen mo..

Yung feeling na nagsusulat kayo lahat, nakatingin kay Ma'am Abie, at pag may seatwork yung mga lines na "Pahingi naman ng papel" at "ui help naman..", at meron ding "Ma'am di ko makuha!" pero kadalasan "Yes tapos na!"

Tinuloy ko pang buklatin tong physics notebook ko, at yung ibang topic hindi ko na maintindihan, kasi yung physics 12 ko last year ko pa kinuha, at hindi pa siya ganun ka-advance tulad dati.(wahaha mas advance pa yung past. dang.)

Pero naiintindihan ko pa rin kung bakit may nakasulat na name sa back cover nito, kung bakit may tunaw na ink sa gilid ng mga pahina. Naiintindihan ko na g-tec point 3 ang panulat ko, na minsan may smiley sa tabi ng mga pangungusap..na minsan din may heart sa tabi ng mga petsa.

Kasi sobrang laking bahagi ng buhay ko ang CalSci.
and it will forever be etched in my heart.

~acetylsalicylate

P.S. hindi ko alam kung bakit lately, sobrang namimiss ko ang Pilipinas, esp. highschool.
Kaexcite tuloy umuwi..wee..sana July na..=]

rawr mode.

2009-01-13T19:59:00.006-08:00

so my fingers are in rawr mode right now, and before this ends I want to write as many words as possible!

ready get set go!

first of all, rawr mode..the state in which my fingers thirst for movement. The reason? I don't even know, but each time this happens I run to my room, standing infront of the piano, and play endless Fur Elise's and Rondo alla Turca's, or grab the guitar and strum the chords of whatever song I can remember.

But for this particular instance, I am knowledgeable of the reason.
Frustration.

It's been awhile since I felt this sort of thing, since I am always accustomed to winning. Not winning as in contests, but the feeling of doing better than what I expected myself to do : winning against myself.

But recently, I lost.

When I saw the marks on my essays and quickwrites, it was like a slap in the face.
No, no, not that gentle..it was like a slap, then a splash of cold water, and then a deafening shout ..."GUMISING KA NGA!!"

and then I woke up. What have I been doing the past four months?

Hmm..the distractions made me sleep.

Work, Play, Hang-outs..
and just this last Christmas, I bought a new phone, with a plan [pre-paid services are not popular here] of unlimited text (domestic and international),
so my fingers are literally burned everyday.
And I also received a laptop..so I can now play whenever.

Not that all of them is entirely bad, maybe it's just me. I lost track of my priorites. It's because nobody is pressuring me to do so. I learned that in this kind of society, in which students don't get a lot of time knowing their batchmates, nobody cares for anybody. I mean, really..I miss CalSci pressure.

My work increases my savings, playing clears my mind, the hang-outs make me feel comfortable and boost my self-esteem..
This new phone I got makes me communicate again with my bestfriends, and not worry about paying huge.
This laptop makes it easier for me to do my homeworks and stuff, not waiting for my sibling until he finishes his.

*sigh* I hope I do better on Friday, the last essay I am going to write for the semester.

My fingers want to rest right now, too bad I also want to write about my experience at work. Next time, perhaps? :D

Au revoir! ^^

~acetylsalicylate

siggy..

2008-12-25T15:16:00.001-08:00

wala lang..namiss q kasi gumawa ng sig..
di na masyado ngpopost sa forums eh..
hmm..
^^

yan nga pla yung audi character q..
ehehe..^___^

~acetylsalicylate

with 6 months left..

2008-12-25T11:28:00.003-08:00

I'm terribly excited to visit my hometown again..
but fear keeps creeping me out.

sure, i miss my buds..especially my bestfriends.
the places, our house, my high school..
i miss them so much that i always dream about it, sleeping or not.

but going away and returning again carries an ounce of fear in it.

what if the things have changed..
not that it didn't have to change, but what if they reversed direction?

what if i am returning to an empty space?

what will happen to this love?
i still don't know why i keep holding on..
and in 6 months i am going to see his face again.
what will happen if that happens?

i don't know.
i'm so scared.

but still, i want to see everyone again..
i miss the philippines so much..

image not mine, i found it here.

~acetylsalicylate

1 month?

2008-12-25T09:24:00.003-08:00

OMG. more than 1 month na kong di nakakapagpost dito.
Kasi naman uber busy eh, work, school..tapos mga galaan pa!
lol

babalik ako promise..mga 2 hours from now at gagawa ako ng matinong post.
ahehe..
sayounara!

~acetylsalicylate

PILOSOPIYA NG PAG IBIG AYON KAY BOB ONG

2008-11-11T20:31:00.001-08:00

nakita ko lang to pinost ng isang friend ko sa friendster..
wala lang..napa-"OMG oo nga!" lang ako..
;]

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng

motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak

ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag kang hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ang sarili

mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang

pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa

buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka na din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga

susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi

pagdurusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag kang magreklamo. Kasi may mga

tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka naman.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi ...

hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama

sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at

magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly,

sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon,

mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng

kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang

kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang

mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin

maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung

bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag

nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang

makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay

sa paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi

lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong

sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa

katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo

naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa

rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga

sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung

matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang

may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na

pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang

nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo.

Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

21. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakata kot mahulog...at kapag

nahulog ka naman, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.." ...

~acetylsalicylate

the future ain't scary..

2008-10-03T22:06:00.004-07:00

until tonight.

i'm strongly worried..now that i learned that I still have loooots more to work on..
with absolutely nothing i can do to make it fewer.
Dang, i wish i had known earlier.

i blame myself for not asking.

~acetylsalicylate

Paris at night.

2008-10-02T20:09:00.004-07:00

for the best view, click the image and zoom in.

spectacular, no?

source - wikipedia : Paris

~acetylsalicylate

+ to memory :

2008-09-25T21:25:00.002-07:00

LOL. got $250 for getting A's.
/gg

~acetylsalicylate

Balloon.

2008-09-22T20:45:00.015-07:00

We live in the 3rd floor of our apartment building, so as I was eating my dinner, I saw a little red helium balloon rising up the sky, about 20 metres away from my seat.

I laughed at the scene. My mom said I looked like crazy.
Why am I laughing anyway?

I wonder how, whoever that kid is, lost his balloon.

Maybe, he asked his sister to tie it around his wrist. But the knot became loose so the balloon flew away.
Or, he put the string of that balloon on the ground and he put a rock to cover it, but the string is thin that it made its way through.

Or, he just lost hold of it. He was busy playing with other toys.
I bet he's crying right now.

I laughed because I remember myself doing those things.
I've lost so many helium balloons back then that I got sick of it, and I settled for the balloons which do not fly.
I enjoyed a lot of time with them.

But even then, balloons do pop.
You're playing with it, and in the next second, you're holding a piece of coloured rubber.

What am I gonna do then?
No matter which balloon I pick, or how I take care of it, it just simply goes away.

Some things or responsibilities in life are like those balloons.

When we let others do it for us, the outcomes are not the ones we expect.
When we cover our mistakes and shortcomings, we are just making them stronger. They would haunt us more that way.
When we do not organize our priorities, we end up losing all of them.

But sometimes, there are events that we have no control over.
We settled for safe and wise choices, but in the end we simply lose.

Does that mean doing anything or doing nothing gives us the same results?
No.
It is the time shared and experience gained from those events and/or responsibilities that makes the difference.

It is up to you to enjoy that "balloon" while it is still there.

Lost any balloon yet? Did you cry, or did you laugh?
Me? You know what I did. LOL

Image not mine, I found it here

~acetylsalicylate

here it goes.

2008-09-19T08:11:00.004-07:00

LOL. i didn't have the time to post yesterday.

I would like to post something interesting but this damn 'school wide read' is occupying most of my time.
well i thought that finally this semester i have the right to relax...but I guess not.

hmm..what about panspermia then.

Panspermia is a general term, but exogenesis would be more appropriate.
Exogenesis is the hypothesis that life on earth was transferred from elsewhere in the universe. That the ancestors of our evolution came here riding a meteor, and since earth was able to sustain life, they did evolve.

This hypothesis was mentioned in Deception Point by Dan Brown (i have not finished this book yet)..it was mentioned as panspermia..
and that's why I become interested in it.
If this is true then seeds of life are present all over the universe..
maybe they hadn't found a planet yet that could sustain life like earth.

I wish when the solar system dies, there is a planet just like ours.
And life would be seeded in that planet again.

I wish someone with the same name and everything as me would be born in that planet..
I would want to look at her life.
Will she make the same decisions that I made?
Will she meet the same friends? Will she study at the same school as mine?
Will she fall in love with the same man I fell for?

Okay I'm being so random right now.
damn that school wide read.

For more information about panspermia/exogenesis click me

~acetylsalicylate

at school.

2008-09-18T08:25:00.003-07:00

I promise to think of a nice post for today.
But right now..I have my English ahead of me.
I love this internet lab.

~acetylsalicylate

drabble 3.

2008-09-04T20:09:00.005-07:00

reinforcing.that.smile.wasn't.so.bad.

~acetylsalicylate

drabble 2.

2008-09-03T17:52:00.012-07:00

Warning :
dont read if you're sick of oh-so-emo love stories.
because if you do, you would only hate me.
i did not write this to make you feel that way.

some girl liked some boy for a long time, but didn't realize it until the boy falls for another.
the girl tried to amend for the past times she'd been ignoring this treasured love.
the increasing frequency of their moments together seemed to be quite useful, as the boy promised he would never do what the girl fears.

the girl leaves, with the relief brought by the pact.
events appear to be happy and fine, when one night the girl found herself crying over a song.

"tulad ng mundong hindi tumitigil sa pag-ikot, pag-ibig di mapapagod..
tulad ng ilog na hindi tumitigil sa pag-agos, pag-ibig di matatapos."

she was shocked to see herself crying, because the lyric is supposed to bring happiness to a girl.
~~to a girl - but to the other~~

the crying lasted for a week.
next day she knew why she had been crying.
the promise was broken.

she kept telling herself it was okay..she already cried over this.
the boy already explained why it had happened.
the not-supposed-to-happen-event was ended anyway,
so the girl bowed to let go if this incident.

days, weeks, months. a year passed by and the feeling did not change.

but only now did the events stabbed her eyes so they would open.
it was never okay..
it was never meant to be.

the promise was supposed to be broken.
she knew it even before she started amending.
she had lost from the start,
and yet why did that boy promised he wouldn't,

when he knew he would anyway?

still,
she had fallen so deep she doesn't know how to give up.

~acetylsalicylate

drabble

2008-09-02T05:20:00.004-07:00

I'm.awfully.tired.but.I.can't.stop.myself

~acetylsalicylate

school days are here again..

2008-08-24T20:45:00.003-07:00

before my grade 11 days are over, i finalized my course selections for the next semester.

Because i had plenty of credits from the subjects at CCSHS (including the Filipino subject) , I have less courses to take to complete the 80 credit requirement for graduation 1 course = 4 credits. I only need to take 6 courses this year (as opposed to 8), in which 2 of them i can withdraw ~~or fail~~ and still graduate. I would take Guitar 11, Beginner's Japanese 11, English 12, Biology 12, Calculus 12 and Career Transitions 12.

Luckily, I took Math 12, Physics 12 and Chemistry 12 already, because these are the courses that many people fail which of course, I passed with flying colours xD. And they were all enthusiastic ~~and scared~~ when they knew that I took them all in one semester, which is perfectly abnormal for an eleventh grade student. All I can say is I'm used to that kind of pressure and amount of work already. In fact, that semester seemed "normal" for me, i mean I had time to check my friendster and mail everyday, slack off the weekends and play auditionPH every night..but why does it sound so scary?

Because its not just passing these courses to graduate, you still need to have : 80 hours of Physical Fitness, 30 hours of Volunteer Work, and 30 hours of Paid Work. Aside from that, more than 80% of the student population has had their permanent part time jobs already, because university tuition is one hell of a lot. I forgot to say that here, parents doesn't have the obligation to pay for their children's tuition, so it is up to us. I don't have a job yet, not because I don't need the money, but it is because my family is used to put studies as first priority. My mom told me that I will be working all the days of my life, so just give this time first to studying. But really, I want to start working, I believe I can manage to do it together with academics.

And here goes my chance! Since I only have 6 courses, my counselor put 2 courses this semester and the 4 courses on the 2nd semester. It did shock me at first, because it is my first time since.. grade 3 i think, to have no afternoon classes. and I only have the language subjects this semester, so I'm gonna miss math and science classes :( I will be working in the afternoons, and may God bless me so I could check my friendster again, slack off and play. xD

~acetylsalicylate

the 08-01 total solar eclipse~

2008-08-11T13:26:00.008-07:00

this post is very late. gomen..

The first day of the 8th month of the 8th year of the 21st century was a great day for our moon. In the eyes of the people who have seen the eclipse's path, the moon, inspite of its size, had conquered the yellow star for about 2minutes.

The total eclipse(animation shown) lasted for 2 hours, and covered 0.4% of the Earth's surface in a 10,200 km long path. It was visible from a narrow corridor through northern Canada (Nunavut), Greenland, central Russia, eastern Kazakhstan, western Mongolia and China. It was northern Russia who experienced the maximum total eclipse,(photo shown) at 10:21:07 UTC, the path was 237 km wide, and the duration was 2 minutes 27 seconds.

The moon's penumbra, which is broader in path, lies in the parts of northeastern North America and most of Europe and Asia. These places experienced only partial eclipses.

It has been my dream to witness a total solar eclipse, not because it is strange and fantastic and unusual, but because of what it tells me. In the eyes of many people, just for a moment, the small moon covered and won over the giant sun. Surely i don't need to explain more, i know you already understand. Let us be the moon and be courageous and confident, for no matter how ginormous the opponent is, winning is still possible.

partial eclipse as seen from Moscow
partial eclipse as seen from China

[photos and facts from wikipedia.org]

~acetylsalicylate

Rajipuris (Tennis no Oujisama on the Radio)

2008-07-26T08:26:00.005-07:00

Tezuka:)

*still laughing*
i rolled on the floor when Tezuka said Hoi Hoi..
^__^

*sings* saru, gorilla, chimpanzee....ROFL XDD

~acetylsalicylate

Revive

2008-07-26T04:35:00.008-07:00

My body is still trembling. I can't believe how i lost my writing abilities!

Today i woke up at 3:30am, i dont know exactly why, but i can't sleep again anyway so i just turned on the pc. I checked my mail, friendster, livej, multiply and even browsed through s10 and s7, but I can't seem to find anything else to do until the sun rises. Fortunately i remembered that i still have this blog, only i turned it to private because i wasn't posting anything. In the past month i actually considered deleting this blog, but as I read through all of my past entries, I just can't click delete. I can't believe that I am amazed at how i wrote the past few years. I'm not that bad after all, so why the hell(oops) did I stopped clicking my hands into the keyboard to write things with sense?

Fear. Yeah, that's what it was.

I can't exactly say what I am afraid of, but one thing's sure. This past year, something happened that made my mind froze and made me not speak or write what I think about,especially in the internet. I still can't remember what the event was, but I'm sure it is significant in my time line. Now that I think about it, I can't believe I now describe myself as an introvert, looking at my highschool photos and reminiscing how loud I am.

I made friends at school, that was a sure thing, because I am smart and quiet, and they saw me with nobody so they all came to me. I did not bother looking for friends because the system is like this anyway, you only get to see your blockmates once, and I am staying for just a year. But it was inevitable, I may want to be alone but I do not want to shove anybody either, so I guess being with other people is not a bad idea after all. I do need lab partners and report groupmates. It would not be nice if I can't participate for the sole reason that I didn't make friends. They all appear as 'persons' to me, I treat them normally as a friend would do, but I do not feel anything about it, unlike my real friends. This idea is foreign to me, since I've known myself-I can't hide what I really feel. Time flies and all was well, everything is smooth and sailing. But nobody seems to bring out the real me, I go home everyday thinking that this person is not me. Maybe this is one of the reasons I can't treat any of them as a real friend. I do not know if it was 'them', or perhaps it is just me. I did not want them to enter my life, or bother showing myself to them. I became too quiet. It looks that I have lost my sense of conversation, when I'm with someone I still think about what to talk about, and I actually thought about it as if it was a test question. Hey, it is like, doing physics and math tests all day is easier than to spend time with someone. what?

Now I know what I fear. Criticisms.

Hell with that. Since when did I become afraid of other people's opinions? Since when did I thought about if what I was saying is right, right for the moment and the people involved? Perhaps I put too much feelings in the things I wrote in the past, that I loved the words and ideas with my heart and soul, as if they were my friends. That's why if they are criticized oh-so badly, I can't help but be afraid to write things anymore. It's my fault, I've been so stupid.

I naturally hated conflicts and arguments, but I know when is the right time for it. (my guy best friend argues with me a lot, about things both important and not) But something happened in the past that unfortunately, I became enraged with arguing so much that I do not want to do it even if it is right. The best way not to do is to remain quiet, and bury all of the ideas into your mind. In time, I became what I just described in the 5th paragraph.

But now it is over, and it is time to start again. Look, I've written an entry already. I'll just change my blog's skin, edit the links and I'm done for the day. Wait, the sun is just rising! I am planning to write my first Tezufuji fic for this day.^^

~acetylsalicylate

Hiatus

2008-04-03T14:48:00.003-07:00

waah.
namiss ko lang magblog.
gusto ko lan maalala na tong araw n toh.
ansaya ko haha..

un,.
highschool parin ako next year,.although i have a choice..
i decided na grumaduate n dito..sang taon na lang naman.
at para sa isang canadian university student..
16 is far too young..^^
at sayang din ang scholarships na mkukuha ko just for graduating in a secondary school again..

but i feel sad too..
graduation--the memories are still fresh..
the goodbyes..the kisses and the wishes..
ayoko na talaga grumaduate ulit for the sole reason na..
i want to put "Caloocan City Science High School" as my secondary school sa resume ko.
korni..but it means a lot to me.
graduating again would mean erasing that precious name..
and replacing it with the school i dont know nothing about..

but then..life does go on..no?

i miss y'all guys.
im perfectly fine..with just my little flaw.
i can't help thinking about you all..
narating ko na rin yung point na gusto ko bumalik ng highschool pero mas gusto ko ng ipagpatuloy ang buhay ko..

i swear i'll never lose our yearbook..nor all of our memories..
i wish you are all still there when i come back..
i haven't changed a bit..im still the person you knew..

~acetylsalicylate

smiles

2007-10-12T20:30:00.003-07:00

isang matamis na haha.

haha. wla akong maisusulat kundi haha. haha. masaya. oo masaya. kahit sinong taong nasa kalagayan ko, alam kong tatawa rin tulad ng ginagawa ko.

masaya ako dahil ang grading system dito hindi kasama ang recitation. so kahit tumahimik ako maghapon basta ma-perfect ko ang test i'll surely get an A. haha. diba. kasi alam mo mahiyain akong tao..nung nakilala niyo kasi ako medyo marunong na akong sumigaw eh. haha. pero tahimik lang talaga ako..kahit alam ko yung sasabihin ko..parang nabablangko ako pag irerecite ko na. eh takot pa naman akong mapahiya. kaya nung una di talaga ako nagsasalita. tapos ang galing kasi hindi na kailangan magtaas ng kamay pag sasagot..kahit sabihin mo na lang pwede na. nagtaka nga ako kasi pano naririnig un eh ang dami namin..iyon pala kasi nung tiningnan ko yung ceiling parang may mga butas na akala mo mga racks nung itlog na isinampa dun. bigla ko naalala ung avr nung teatro. natawa ako. haha.

masaya ako dahil finally makakatrabaho na ako. whoo. sa unang pagkakataon magkakaraon na ako ng pagkakataon na gumawa ng pera ng sarili kong mga kamay. para kasing ang sarap nun dahil alam mo kahit ano ng mangyari sa buhay mo kaya mo ng buhayin ang sarili mo. dahil alam mo na kung pano kumita. pero wag ka muna masyado ma-excite. di pa naman ako tanggap. sinabi ko lang pwede na akong magtrabaho. 16 kasi ang legal age dito. kung gusto mo habang binabasa mo ito nag-aaply na ako ng driver's license. ang lagay nga lang eh wala pa akong kotse. haha. mahaba pang ipunan yun, kailangan ko muna ng laptop. macbook. para puti tsaka wala ng right mouse key. tapos nun bibili ako ng exercise machine. pinangako ko na bago ako magdebut payat na akO! haha. tama lang un. pag kasi lumagpas na ako ng 18 na di pa rin ako payat, wala ng pag-asa. so aun. tapos nun, yung pang-college ko na. masyado akong ambisyoso at gusto ko magmedicine sa harvard. haha. libre naman mangarap diba. kaso ang mahal talaga dun. at saka kung dun ako mag-aaral, mag-isa ako dun sa states. maiiwan sila dito kaya kailangan may pera din ako dun. medyo ang layo na natin noh. ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin eh nag-apply ako sa mcdonalds pero hindi pa nila ako tinatawagan. kasi online application un. eh dahil wala pa siguro ako experience. hindi ako mapipili agad. haha.

masaya ako kasi araw-araw nakikita ko ang tatlong klase ng tao sa locker ko. una, mga taong may green na checkered na palda. ung isa naman, may pantalon na itim. ung isa naman, nakasuot ng pang-teacher. napapa-haha nga ako pag nakikita ko sila eh. nakangiti sila pag tumitingin ako. parang hindi nagsasawa na ipaalala sakin na dun ako galing. tapos mapapa-haha ulit ako nung makita ko ung isang pang set. may mga naka-peace, may naka \m/ tapos may nakasigaw, may nakatawa. lahat na. nakakatawa sila. parang ibinuhos lahat ng tuwa ng mundo sa mga kilos nila. parang hindi na matatapos ang lahat ng kasiyahan. pero pagkatapos ng isang segundong "click" ng camera. natapos na ang lahat. kailangan na nila magpaalam. hindi naman sa hindi na magkikita, pero kailangan na nilang mabuhay sa magkakaibang landas. kailangan na nilang masanay. hindi na sila lalakad papunta sa kulay green na gate at naka-aspaltong quadrangle. hindi na sila lalakad sa tatlong bahagdang struktura kung san sila natutong tumawa, umiyak, makipag-away, makipagbati, labanan ang lahat ng bagay na sumagabal sa kanila. hindi na sila makikinig sa mga nagturo sa kanila ng mga pinakamahirap na subjects sa buong mundo, na tinuruan din silang mabuhay ng may dangal at respeto sa mundo at sangkatauhan. pero kahit hindi na nila magagawa ang mga iyon, libre pa rin naman silang tingnan ang isang segundong larawan na nagpapakita ng saya sa apat na taong nagdaan nilang magkakasama. haha. nakakatawa talga. tapos isasarado ko na ang locker ko. pupunta na ako sa classroom ko.

paglakad ko palabas ng green na gate na iyon. magiging doktor na ako. doktor na dala ang mga ngiti ng mga taong hindi ko na makaklimutan sa buong buhay ko. at sana naaalala mo. na tuwing umuuwi ako dati. may isang taong nasa tabi ko, handang lakarin ang buhay kasama ako. at sana nababasa niya to ngayon. pero kahit hindi, alam naman niyang siya ang buhay ko. pero hindi ko na tatawanan to. malungkot dahil mag-isa ako. pero ayos lang. sobrang magiging masaya ako pag nakita ko na siya pagkatapos ng tatlong mahabang taon:)

~acetylsalicylate

Birthday

2007-09-10T16:39:00.003-07:00

sweet sixteen.

nyahaha..sweet nga ba? tumanda na nman po ng isang taon ang inyong lingkod..hahaha..eh mukha nman akong matanda kahit na bata pa talga ako..diba..mas mukha pa ngang bata c lacar sken eh..(--,)

niweys kaya ako nagpost kasi xmpre magkekwento ako. lalo na sa mga bagong pangyayari sa aking buhay..nabanggit ko sa last post ko na i officially ended the highschool chpter sa buhay ko..nyehehe..aun..tumungo na tau sa bago kong skul.

alam mo b unang araw pa lng mali na..hahaha..kasi akala ko grade 12 na ako kasi meron akong subjects na pang-grade 12 level lng. umatend ako ng assembly ng mga grade 12..nagpapicture kasama nila tapos nung kinuha ko na ung time table ko..wtf..grade 11 pla ako..hahaha...tuloy di ko lam kung ano mga gagawin gn grade 11 kasi di nmn ako umatend ng assembly. nga pala...nung nakita ko na ung theater bigla ko naalala ung high school musical..hehehe..nakikita nio naman sa pic noh..aun..tapos ung picture-thingy...group pic ng lahat ng grade 12 (na mali nga ung punta ko). so aun lang ung first day..assembly..photo at timetables.

second day..ayan na ung 1st day sa klase.

Block A- Physics 11.unang klase ko physics..prang basic physics..ngaun nga ung lesson namin conversion ng units...significant digits na alam naman nating lahat na master na natin un db..so ano pa nga ba aasahan ko..inaantok ako sa block A ko. ung mga upuan nga pla high chairs..ung tables mga wood tables xa..by two's..sa isang table dlwa ang makakagamit. xmpre dahil bago ang inyong lingkod ay ntural lamang na wala akong katabi. hanggat may nag-approach skin at ang pngalan nia ay nadelaine..dhylan for short (xet bkt b ang layo) well anyways..in short..ngkaron ako ng kakilala..mtgal na xa rito kaya kahit pilipino xa ay english na tlga..totoo na ang lahat ng pinoy na pumunta dito sa murang edad like 3-13...english na tlga at hindi na ngtatagalog..kami na nga lang ata ung nagtatagalog pa. si dhylan galing daw xa sa baguio. aun. un lng alam ko..ala na kaming pinag-usapang iba. tapos next block na.

Block B- Chemistry 11. haha..natatawa ako..xmpre basic chem..na alam naman nating lahat na mgling ako (ehem..) jokes lng..hahaha..pero db..dlawang taon na taung nagchem eh anu pa bng ggwen ko..recall lng. nung pumsok na ako sa room..nkkgulat kasi may seat plan na kagad. at katabi ko dlwang canadians. pero dhl nga mgling ako sa chem (ehem) inaashan ko na na boring dn ang block b. pero mali ako..kasi umpisa pa lng msya na. eh db may seat plan nga..tapos nasa pinakalikod ako. sabi nung teacher namin kailangan kilala namin ang isa't-isa kaya ngpa-game xa..kung ikaw ang unang tao..sasabihin mo ang pangalan mo..pag pangalawa ka..sasabihin mo ang pngalan mo at ung nauna sau. so obvious naman na pag huli..kawawa ka..dahil first day pa lng irerecite mo na lahat ng pngalan ng 26 blockmates mo. buti na lang nasa likod ako..at likod ang inuna...pangatlo ako..kya madali lang. ung dalawang canadian na katabi ko..ung sa kaliwa ko babae..hannah ang pnglan nia. tpos sa kaliwa ko si william..pnglan palng mukhang wafu na..hahaha..pero oo wafu tlga xa..kya lng..eto na. nung nagpapakilala na kami..xmpre kahit konti mgkekwento ka tungkol sa srili mo. eh etong c william knina pa makulit at sigaw xa ng sigaw ng harry(dito kasi ok lng kahit mejo maingay ka sa klase). ngayon bakit "harry"?. si harry ay kablock dn namin..kaso nasa may harap xa. nung nagpapakilala na si william...cnb nia.."harry's my boyfriend"..so aun. alam nio na kung bakit "kaya lng". xmpre lumaki ako sa pinas kaya khit papano..may gulat factor. db,,kht nman kaw mgugulat eh. pero wala sa knila ung nagkikilos "gay"..ni hindi nga cla mukhang gay dhl clang dlwa..grabe gwapo tlga..(pero wag mong kalimutan na mas gwapo pa rin c marc ü). so aun..hanggang dumating sa dulo tawanan kami kasi xmpre ung iba namamali ng pangalan. ok time na..lunch na.

nagbabaon lang ako ng burger kasi ang mahal tlga ng food sa cafeteria. isang slice ng pizza ay $1.50. prang 60 pesos na un db. isang slice lng un ah..pero pag ngcmula ka ng magtrabaho dito mas maiintndhan mo..ang minimum wage ay (nbanggit ko na toh sa s10) $8/hr. kaya kht janitor ka...grocery bagger..tgahugas ng pinggan sa resto ay kikita ka ng $280 pero week..assuming a part time job na 5 hours per day lng..in pesos kumita ka ng $11200 sa isang linggo. so ano ngang kinamahal ng isang slice gn pizza na $1.50. xmpre kasi ung perang dala namin...pesos converted to dollars..at dhl alam mong mababa ang peso..konti lng ang mkukuha mong dollars. sana gets mo ako. so natapos na ang lunch.

Block C-Math 11. Basic Algebra. oo bumagsak ako nung first year..pero mataas naman ang calculus ko(ewan ko kung bakit) so aun. ang pinakanakakaantok na klase sa lahat..bukod sa alam ko na..eh nde naman kami mxdo sa participation..di tulad ni sir capiral at mam bataller..na sobrang namimiss ko na. pero xmpre dahil boring nghnap ako ng pagkakaablahan. sa kaliwa ko..may gwapong canadian..(hahaha..wla ng alam kundi mghanap eh noh...) evan ang pnglan nia..so aun..wla lng..nghhnap lng ng pgkakaabalahan. pag wala akong mgwa ttngin lng ako sa knya. aun. ayoko na nga..mukha nmn akong loka-loka.

Block D- English 12.eto ung nilo-look forward ko everyday bukod sa chem. kasi nde ito tulad ng mga naunang subjects na alam ko na. sa iba't-ibang bansa sa mundo..english lang ang naiba ng pagtuturo. araw-araw..writing ang pinapractice namin..dahil ang provincial exam (parang periodic test) ay 50% essay. at 6 lang ang grades ng essay..either you get a 1,2,3,4,5 or 6. un lang. wlang 85.75..90.25..97..6 grades lang pagpipilian. so xmpre kailngan galingan mo. nkakatuwa din ung teacher namin kasi everyday shinushuffle ung seats nmin..tsaka cinoconsume ng teacher namin ung strictly 1 hour and 26 minutes na block time. at saka nde pa ako naboring sa english kahit anung araw.

aun..un ung buhay ko dito..ok naman..prang college..dhl sa block..pero highschool pa din dhl may lockers..hehehe..andun nga ung wacky at formal pic ng batch natin sa pinto nung locker ko eh..^^

dahil birthday ko kahapon..bumili kami ng black forest cake..hehehe..at ska ngluto kami ng carbonara for the first time..ngayon lang kami nghanda ng carbonara. slamat sa mga bati nio..pero di pa natutupad bday wish ko..hnggang ngyon. pero wag nio an alalahanin un..di kau un..hihihi^^ hapee birthday jill..hapee birthday heb...i was born a day before your first birthday.^^

~acetylsalicylate

First day of school

2007-09-03T19:54:00.002-07:00

a new page.

life is like a story book.
a novel.
each and everytime i gain something..
i learn something.
i experience something.

somehow..
it had to end.
and im saying this chapter officially ends tonight.

tomorrow's the official start of a new chapter in my story.
but like most books..
everytime you move on..
you carry what you've been through.
i always keep the memories..the knowledge..the feeling.

my heart grows weaker and weaker by the moment.
but i know i can hold on.
i know..i know.
i know i can.
be fast..tomorrow's really unclear to me.

"shall i believe and hold on to what you promised...tell me..."

~acetylsalicylate

Scold

2007-08-27T17:42:00.001-07:00

is perfection really happiness?

random thoughts crossed my mind..surely after a scold from nature.

why is it that if you're already nearing perfection..a little mistake is very critical..
that maybe all the outcomes must depend on that small thing?

why is it that consistency is a lot more better than size..
when you have done great but not keep it..
you may lose its value?

why do a single evil erases goods..
that how much you have been doing nice..
when devil strikes you..you're already demon?

why is the human mind like that..
did it not understand where it is??
it is in a body of flaws.
stained with sin.

how can you expect it to not have mistakes..
it..itself is not perfect.
so why does the mind seek this damn completeness..

is perfection really happiness?
does flaw roughs success?
do mistakes always make you sad?

+++

want more of that cute pic? click this.
oh. dont ask me for credits.
im the one who made the poem you know. xD

~acetylsalicylate

Pharmacy

2007-08-14T21:14:00.001-07:00

a future's glimpse.

it was the first time we went to a doctor's clinic. believe it or not..we all three had damn itchy rashes on our legs and feet after we woke up a couple of days ago. it may not be that serious for us to go see a physician..but sometimes it's a lot better if you can take it from the experts..especially when this country somewhat "oblige" you to do so.

every month, every citizen here spends a minimum of around $30-$40 on the province's medical insurance. whether you got sick or not..at the first day of the month you have to pay. so why the heck? its because you got a care card. everytime you get sick, you can go at any doctor..at any time and place..show your care card..and pay nothing. it's that easy..not like in philippines when most of the ill are having double troubles----first, their illness then the money to pay the check-up and the meds..it may sound free but actually you had them paid before you can even get sick. so here..no doctors accept cash after giving you the prescriptions. it is the government who pays them with what they had collected from you.

so let's go back to where i started. we were having these rashes and we went to a clinic. and believe it or not..clinics are scattered everywhere that if you accidentally fainted on your shopping you can easily go to the doctor. and the clinic we went is actually inside the mall. funny, isn't it? generally a clinic do not only hold a single doctor..but a group of doctors..and even though they are many..sometimes you still have to wait. then we entered the clinic. my mom talked to the receptionist of the clinic and presented our care cards. then we sat and wait for the medical assistants to call our names. after a long while..we were guided inside a room by the assistant and asked us what the problem is. then she wrote it in a paper..closed the door and out the papers at a pocket in the door. then we waited again..and then the doctor came in and checked us up.

then came the prescription. the doctor said the rashes may be caused by pests living in the carpets..because apartment suites are all carpeted. so now we go to the pharmacy to get our meds. like clinics...pharmacies are inside supermarkets that make it a lot easier to buy things that you really need. of course..i expect a pharmacy with one or two pharmacists that get your prescription and then hand the drug over you and its finished. but here it's a lot different. in a pharmacy there is 4 counters..and the counters represent one pharmacist. the pharmacist gets the prescription..and guess what? by the time you ask them that drug..it's the only time they make it. of course it does not work for all the drugs out there..there are drugs that are already made..but those drugs are the most common and are needed urgently. so if the drug is only made by the time you ask them..it will have a longer shelf life. and also..if it is by this system..chemicals will not be wasted.

then the drug is already made. the doctor prescribed us a cream to ease the itchyness. the person at the counter who gets the payment for the medicines is not a pharmacist..but only a normal clerk. when i got the cream..i was surprised by what is written. here..the patients are so protected that the drug they will be taking bears the name of the doctor who prescribed it..and also the name of the pharmacy who made it. so i thought that definitely it would be a crime making a mistake on prescribing a wrong drug because when that patient didn't get well..they can easily report it. i felt a little nervous because malpractice is really a crime here and the patients get justice everytime.

but of course this event will not stop me to become a good physician. it is not really my dream at first..but by having a great interest at human physiology and seeing what good it does for the people..i strongly dream of becoming a great doctor now. sometimes i even dream of finishing medicine at the world's top university--harvard medical school. it's because the foundation sometimes matters..if i study there..i can have the latest on the medical field..and provide great assistance to my future patients. really..becoming a doctor is not a pleasure to be one yourself..but the pleasure to be the one who can cure the people around you..especially those who you loved most ^________^

~acetylsalicylate

2007-08-07T22:32:00.000-07:00

i should have given up. right?

wala lang..nalungkot kasi ako bigla. amf kasi. tagal ko na rin hindi nalulungkot. kasi..araw-araw naman ako nag-oonline..nakakausap ko naman ung mga namimiss ko ng tao..so ano naman ikakalungkot ko..eh parang anjan lang din naman sila.

what's there to give up nga ba? i should have given up. i should have given up. what?
tignan mo toh.
sabi ni captain jack sparrow.
"Sometimes, FATE has a cruel way of putting things together. Maybe it's better to give up when there's no point in fighting for something anymore."

"When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after it when it's already miles away."

onga naman.
ikaw ba pag alam mong wala ka nman mapapala tutuloy ka pa?
nagsasayang ka lang ng panahon.
eh may iba pa namang pwedeng gawin.

pero di pa tapos ung cnb ni jack.
"But sometimes, its a lot better to be a fool to go after what we really want and need.."

"rather than regret everything in the end..because we never even tried."

haha..sana pwedeng ulitin ung buhay noh.
para sa pag-uulit mo..wala ka ng sasayangin na panahon.
para maayos.
pero hindi.
u only have one shot.

kung nagkamali ka na.
sigurado masasaktan ka sa huli.
oo masasaktan ka na.
given na un.
pero kung sasaktan mo pa lalo ung sarili mo hanggang makarating ka sa huli.
di mas lalo ka ngsayang ng oras.
why not be true kung ano talga nraramdman mo.

parang sa love.
di mo maiiwasan na magfall sa iba kahit may mahal ka na.
given na na may masasaktan kang isa.
kahit ano gwin mo. may masasaktan talaga.
pero xmpre..piliin mo kung san ka masaya.
at least you'll nver regret kung cno man ung pinili mo.
kasi dun ka msaya eh!
kaysa piliin mo ung isa..at sbhn mo sa huli.
dpt pinili ko n lng ung mhal ko tlga..
prehas lng dn nman..mssktan dn ung isa.

wala lng. bkt nga ba ako mlungkot.
magsusulat muna ako sa diary ko. di ko pden mgetz srili ko eh
"take risks.."..amf para san pa ung cnb na yan.
^^

2007-08-06T09:16:00.000-07:00

wa! bakit ba nawawala ang lalagyan ng title? nakakainis naman. lagnat.

haha. nakakatawa lang. o ano palag ka? hahaha. para tuloy akong barumbadong adik sa kalye(ay onga pala wala na ako sa pilipinas. pero kahit na. dun na umikot mundo ko kaya un lang yung mga tinutukoy ko). ok joke lang. seryoso na. may kekwento ako sa inyo.pero bago yon. gusto ko pasalamatan ang babaeng na-itoothbrush ang shampoo at hindi toothpaste. si mithi..ung isang link sa blog ni miki(0 db mgkarhyme pa sila ng pangalan) kasi nkktuwa xa. actually kung pano sya magsulat, ganon din ako mag-isip.kaya lang, hindi ko masyado naisusulat yung mga naiisip ko, kasi parang ang boring naman kung lahat yun ilalagay ko dito, eh tayong lahat ay nag-aaral, at mas importanteng basahin niyo ang aralin niyo kaysa ang ikekwento ko sa inyo diba. ang haba na. pero salamat sa kanya kasi sisimulan ko na rin magsulat ng mga iniisip kong talaga. kung boring ka na, ganito gawin mo. puntahan mo yung exact center ng page mo, turn left 45 degrees..tumuloy ka lang hanggat makita mo yung pulang box na may puting x. ayun pindutin mo na. haha. napansin mo bang sinayang ko lang yung oras mo. o sige na nainis ka na. chupi. ^^

ok. anu nga ba yung ikekwento ko. nagsimula to nong nabasa ko yung blog ni mithi. tapos ang dami ko na naisip. matutulog na ako nun eh. nung naalala ko yung mga bagay na ginawa ko nung nasa highschool pa ako. haha. natatawa na lang ako dahil ang sama ko pala nun, malalaman mo lang naman yun pag tapos na diba., kaya nga ito na..ikekwento ko na.

hmm. naranasan mo na ba na may kagalit kang tunay...ilang buwan na kayong hindi nag-uusap. hindi nagpapansinan. yung taong ito galit sayo pero hindi mo alam kung bakit. hmm..para mas madali itago nating yung taong yun sa pangalang marc. galit sakin si marc nun, hindi ko alam kung bakit. pero nag-umpisa yun nung mga simula ng 3rd year. normal kasi na tuwing hapon, sabay kaming maglalakad pauwi, kasi may problema xang ikekwento sakin. kasi nga tinuturing niya daw akong bestfriend, ako daw lagi niya pagsasabihan ng mga problema niya sa buhay. pero nakakapagtaka lang kasi, helium xa tapos neon ako. npakadali naman pumili sa isang taga-helium na magsabi ng mga problema niya, bakit kailngan niya pa ako puntahan at sunduin pag pauwi na kami. so ayun. nung isang araw nga, naalala ko, uuwi na daw kami. tapos sabi ko sandali lang kasi hindi pa ako nakakapagligpit ng gamit ko. tapos naghintay xa dun sa harap ng neon room. tapos..hindi ko na maalala. ang alam ko sobrang tagal ko nag-ayos..tapos ngflute pa ata ako, tapos umalis na xa, kasi antagal na niya nakatyo dun. nkalimutan ko pala na andun xa..tapos ung mga sumunod na linggo at buwan, hindi niya ako pinapansin. at hindi xa pumapasok. lagi xang absent. so aun.

actually hindi yan ung tinutukoy ko. kinwento ko lang muna yan para maramdman mo ung galit niya sakin. tapos aun. pumasok xa ng isng araw, eh di gustong-gusto ko na xa kauspin, kaso wala xa lagi dun sa room nila kaya nag-iwan lang ako ng papel dun sa bag niya. sinabi ko magOL xa ng 7:00 ng gabi para makapag-usap kami sa YM. eh di un. excited na ako umuwi kasi malalaman ko na rin kung bakit xa galit. pero may nangyari at kinailangan ko magtagal sa school. tapos..nung pauwi pa..ung mga kasabay ko nag-aya pumunta sa grand. tapos eto naman ako pumayag. pumayag? teka..hindi ka ba nagtaka. ilang buwan ko ng kagalit c marc. tapos kung kelan naman maayos ko na..may nag-aya lang sakin sa grand nkalimutan ko na magOL ng 7:00.. hindi ka ba nagtaka..gano ba kahalga ung mga nag-aya sakin para ipagplit ko ang pagkaka-ayos na un..pero ngyon ko lang naman un napansin. dati hindi ko un inintindi. tpos ano ngyre sa grand. hihi. nkktuwa lng kasi tumingin kami ng wallet..mga kakikayan sa buhay..tapos..sa gitna nun bigla ko naalala na 8:00 na..mgOOL pa ako ng 7! so sinabi ko..kailangan ko na umuwi. tapos aun. nung malapit na kami sa package counter..nawawala pala ung number namin! natakot kami kasi andun lahat ng gamit namin. bumalik kami dun sa pinagtinginan namin..tapos naiwan pala dun sa may mga wallet. hoo..buti na lng! kung may nakakuha nun eh di dedz lahat ng gamit nmin. so aun na..sa sobrang kaba..pag-uwi ko nklimutan ko ata magOL. so ano..eh di lalo nagalit si marc sakin. xmpre..ikaw b..pag ginwa ko ba un sau di ka magagalit.

ok. naranasan mo na ba un? its a matter of choice db. cguro kung di ko cla snmahan sa grand..cguro nde naman sila nagalit sakin ng sobra-sobra. pero kung di ako ngOL ng alas-syete..malamng di na ako pansinin buong buhay ko nung taong un. ano nga ba ang pagkakaiba ng 3 oras sa buong buhay. anlaki noh..pero bakit nakaya kong ipagpalit un. naisip mo ba gano kahalaga...ung mga taong un. cguro kung naranasan mo to maiintndhan mo ako. pero kahit nde eh..sa kwento ko pa lang. pero cge na. tapos na un.

so ano ngyre pgktpos. cguro ngtaka ka. nagkabati naman kami bago mag-end ang 3rd year. oh db. ang bait tlga ni marc noh. kaso dun nia rin cnb na hindi na xa magfo-fourth year sa calsci. ang dahilan kasi aalis na sila papuntang U.S.. awts. anskit noh..kung kelan nman maayos na..tsaka naman xa aalis. kaya napagdesisyunan ko..i-give up ko n lng kung ano mang "nrrmdman" ko para sa knya. kasi nasaktan na ako at nsktan na xa ng sobra sobra..pnhon na para i-end ung bonds namin. tapos nun hindi pa rn xa pumsok..khit nung closing party para sa mga 4th year. kasi birthday niya nun kinabukasan. kaya may binigay sakin si ate mj. xmpre alam nio na un. so anong ggwin ko sa binigay ni ate mj. eh aalis na ung taong bibigyn ko. tingo ko ung gift na un..tapos hindi ko inakala na mga may na un bago mag4th year. ngOL si marc. huwaaaattt..akala ko ba nasa U.S. ka na. un pala papasok pa xa. at maibibigay ko pa rin ung gift na un. ok tapos na ng kwento. alam nio na ung kasunod..4th year na un eh.

pero ang hindi pa rin talaga ako mapalagay eh ung mga taong un na mhlaga sken..ano nga b cla sken?

nagtaka karin cguro bakit lagnat ang title nito. haha. sa dinami ba ng inisp ko hindi sasakit ang ulo. tapos eto pa..natuklasan ko na nakakalgnat pala ang selos. haha..lately ko lang to napansin.

nasa mall kasi kami nun...mga kahpon..sunday..tpos may ngtext sakin., tinext ni lacar sken na nagtelebabad daw cla hnggang 12 ng midnight. at may tinanong daw s kanya na dlwang tnong. pagktpos ko bshin un..ewan ko b bkt parang bumagsak ung buong mundo sakin..eh ng-usap lng namn cla sa telepono. hayy..langya namang puso toh..bakit ba napakaselosa mo. hahaha..so aun..mejo ansakit na ng ulo ko kakaisip nung mga bagay nung 3rd year..tpos nung ngselos pa ako. aun. pag-uwi dito humiga ako tpos ang init ko na pala. nkakalagnat ang selos noh.hahaha.

aun. dito ngtatapos ang walang kwentang kwento ng wlang kwentang buhay ng wlang kwentang ngsusulat na to. isumpa mo na ako dahil ninakaw ko ang oras mo at wala ka nman napala dito. pero kung naintndhan mo ako. gno ba khlga ang mga taong un sken.^^

2007-08-02T12:16:00.000-07:00

wa nawala ung lagayan ng title! title nito ay when fire catched me.

yesterday morning, i woke up earlier than my mom and brother(kadalasan kasi ako nahuhuli ng gising)..hoping to play audition and DarkRO force..kasi pag nagising na si mama, xa na ung uupo sa pc buong araw at hindi na ako mkakapglaro(adik?). ako ang naunang nagising, kaya ako magsasaing at magluluto ng breakfast. eh di nagsaing na ako, kasi un ung pinakamatagal maluto kaya dapat unahin, tapos in-on ko na yung computer para habang ngluluto ako, nag-start-up na xa.

so aun na, pagkatpos ko i-on ung pc, sinalang ko na ung mantika na lulutuan ko ng tokwa. un kasi ung gustong ulam ng kapatid ko eh. deep fry daw, kaya naisip ko matagal pa iinit ung mantika. so chineck ko muna ung pc. xmpre, my normal routine, YM tpos friendster. tapos nung nasa friendster na ako, may bago kasi mga pictures si lacam kaya mejo nagtagal ako.

then...siguro naman nahulaan mo na. naaamoy ko na yung usok nung mantika na mainit na, eh may smoke alarm ung apartment namin, pag tumunog ung alarm ng matagal, pupunta dito ung fire men at palalabasin ang lahat ng tao sa building na un. xmpre auko mangyri un db..ang aga-aga pa..kaya nagmadali ako tinakpan ko ng cloth ung lutuan. tapos clinear ko ung smoke sa bahay. un pala, hindi ko pa nai-ooff ung stove! so pagdating ko ulit sa kusina, nakita ko majo sunog na ung cloth...nilagyan ko ng tubig tpos nilgay ko ulit..tpos...whoossh....nagliyab xa! huwaaaattt..di ko na alam ung ggwin ko..ung smoke alarm tumutunog na! nagising si mama pagktapos ko patayin ung apoy. xmpre kumuha ako ng mas makapal na cloth na dinamp ko ng hot water at konting sabon..para mawalan ng source ng oxygen ung fire diba..pagkagising niya dinala niya agad ung umuusok na lutuan sa may bintana..para sa labas mag-usok..kasi inuubo na ako sa smoke na nasa bahay..at tumtunog pa rin ang smoke alarm at super nagpapanic na ako deep inside. may asthma kasi ang brother ko.buti n lng tulog pa xa at nasa kwarto xa.. tpos naisip kong paypayan ung smoke alarm para tumigil na..kasi pag oxygen lng ung nararamdman nia titigil na xa. hay buti na lng tumigil na...at hindi pumunta ung bumbero para palabasin kami lahat.

natunaw ung fan sa exhaust..kasi nasa taas lang un ng stove, tapos kulay itim na ung dingding na dati ay puti. xmpre nilinis ko un ng mabuti..baka paalisin kami sa apartment..mahirap maglipat tsaka mag-hanap ng bagong titirhan diba..hayy..grabe..sobrang kinabahan ako na kasalanan ko naman. hehehe..di naman maikakakaila na kasalanan ko naman talaga diba..hayy..ang t*nga ko tlga..

lesson learned(ay di pala learned. actually matagal ko na alam na bawal iwanan ang niluluto..di ko lang ine-excercise). lahat ng natutunan mo..gamitin. hahaha...stupid me. ayun. un lng ung bago sakin ngayon. malapit na enrollment namin at sobrang knakbahan ako sa ggwen ko sa school..ingat kau guys at keep in touch^^

Dumbledore's army.

2007-07-22T20:05:00.000-07:00

it's the first time for almost 8 months to step into the theaters again. but it was worth the wait. watching my favorite series in a place i've never been before. it didn't bring back memories of old movies i've already watched..which helped me concentrate more on the movie. i did sit back and relax.

The order of the phoenix. stunning and fantastic. the effects were really carefully made and it stunned me a lot.

...the dementors..right. they weren't as scary as they were on HP3.
...i admired Luna(of course, it's the first time i saw her). her character on the story was a great influence. i loved her being there for Harry in those times, and for sharing pain with him.
...i admired Ginny the most.. i wasn't expecting her that much(because of small appearances on the previous movies), but i finally noticed her in this movie.
...honestly, Cho and Harry didn't stun me with their kissing scene.
...and i did hate Cho more.
...Ron and Hermione didn't go below what i've expected from them.
...i wasn't really expecting Nevile to be more handsome now.(remembering what he looks like on the previous movies), and also I admire his character.
..Dumbledore's army! truly Gryffindor's the best! damn those slytherins...
...the best scene for me was the fight between the death eaters and d.a. it was like a fight between light and darkness..white and black.
..i tried really not to cry because my mom was sitting right next to me, but im really crying inside when sirius died. T____T
...and of course, who didn't hate umbridge. i was so smiling when finally she was carried by those centaurs.
...expelliarmus..stupefy..expecto patronum..crucio....~~avada kedavra~~

for me this is the best so far..and it made me look forward for what i promised myself.
Keep up the good work harry.

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i've read in one magazine that Daniel Radcliffe is the richest among the teen stars in the world. he had recently received a $50million check for playing Harry's role in the order of the phoenix. wow! 50 million dollars is a hell lot of money!

the mysterious play

2007-07-21T11:38:00.000-07:00

after ng mahabang paghihintay..nakakaasar na hindi pala ako pwede magtake ng chemistry assessment..hayy..anu bang...wth..ngreview pa na nman ako ng todo xmpre kasi alam mo naman chem un aukong madisapoint ko ang sarili ko!...pero enuf of the regrets..eto wala na naman ako magawa.

dahil nga wala ako magawa. sana napansin mo ang bg music ko..itooshi hito no tame ni..at kung tulad ka ni debie na naging paborito to, alam mong fushigi yugi ang tinutukoy ko. antagal na nung pinalabas yun noh..ngayon ko lang xa napanood ng kumpleto. 52 episodes ung sa TV + ung mga OVA(sequel ata toh...gnun) mga 13+ episodes. actually ngyon nasa episode 45 pa lng ako..xmpre 30 minutes isang episode nun tpos tuloy-tuloy ko pnpnood..eh mtutulog pa ako at maliligo..kakain..kaya nbbwsan ung kaya kong panoorin. grabe nga naiiyak ako..lalo na nung namatay si nuriko at chiriko..T_____T

at xmpre hindi lang naman fushigi yugi ang pinapnood ko. bago ko simulan ung fushigi yugi, natapos ko na yung neon genesis evangelion..at cnsb ko sau super nakakawindang ung mga last part. akala mo lang puro siya labanan at mga makina na nakikipaglaban..pero super sa mga last 5 episodes..naging super psychological na ang drama (nde ko nman mxdo ngmit ung super noh?)
na kahit ako hindi ko na magetz ano ung pinaparating nila. kaya nagsearch ako sa internet para malaman yung buong plot nung story..pero wala ako nakita na talagang kinwento nila..at nkita ko pa na ung TV series has its psychological theme..pero mgnda naman tlga xa kht nakakwindang nga lang..ung picture na nkkta niyo sa "your ordinary girl" ay isang character dun..being the last angel(mga kalaban nila) na ngkatawang tao.

kekwento ko lng ung interesting parts ng story. ang earth daw non ay isang planetang walang nabubuhay. ung mga mabubuhay daw dun ay ipapadala ng mga tga-ibang galaxy sa form ng isang nilalang na manganganak at pupuno ng mga nilalang na un sa earth. dumting ang pnhon pinadala na ang isang angel..si adam..para magkalat ng lahi niya sa mundo. pero wag ka, si adam ay hindi tao kundi anghel..at hindi ung anghel na may pakpak at mukhang tao na iniiisp mo. ang mga angel na ito ay mga halimaw..pero nagtataglay ng. 99.98% similarity sa human DNA. dapat ay magsasabog na ito ng lahi niya sa mundo..ngunit hindi niya alam na bago pa xa nakarating sa mundo, dumating na si Lilith, isang padala din ng kalawkan na aksidenteng bumunggo sa mundo at naunang nagkalat ng lahi niya...at si Lilith nga pala ay isang anghel kung saan ngmula ang lahat ng tao. so ayun, ibg sabihin hindi tlga dito ang tao ngunit aksidente lng na nabuhay dito.

pxenxa na..aalis ako ngayon kaya hindi ko matatapos ang kwento ko. pero gusto ko lang sabihin ang sweet ni nuriko sa fushigi yugi nung nagpakalalaki na xa..^^

oops. di pa tapos.

2007-07-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

amf nde ako nakaatend ng test. peste kasi ung bus. xmpre dhl may time nga ung paglabas nila. kailangan abangan. eh last na bus na dadaan na before the test starts ung sasakyan namin. antgal nga namin naghintay sa bus stop. tpos un pla ung dadaan "not in service" awts tlga..pinapostpone na lng tuloy..cnb ko mskt tiyan ko kaya gnun (well madali naman cla maniwala..twagan mo lang ok na) hayun..pending pa rin..

ingat kayo lagi^^

it begins here.

2007-07-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

nothing much to post, really.
i'll have a math 11 exemption test and a chemistry assesment test tomorrow.
wish me luck^_^

"you always come to relieve me. but it is also always that you have to leave. i guess im just a puppet for you. after you made fun of me, you leave me behind. when you need me again, you'll just look up your old closet and im alive again."

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2007-07-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

wala ako maisip na title.
ewan ko b.
kasi gusto ko lang sabhin kung ano man gusto ko.
a title always encloses its body.
kapag bingyan ko na ng title, hindi na ako pwedeng mawala sa title.
di ko na pwede isulat ang hindi niya sakop.
para ano pa at nilagyan ko siya nun.

naging duwag na kaya ako. dati kahit hindi ko alam ang laban tumutuloy ako. pero bakit sa pagkakataong ito. huminto ako at itinago ko sa'yo. siguro ganon lang talaga. mahirap pumunta sa giyera na wala kang sandata. hindi ko din masisisi ang sarili ko. totoong ang magpapatigil lang sa'yo ay ang kaalamang hindi ka mananalo. pag nalaman mo na masasaktan ka lang. hindi ba nong bata ka pa. naglakad ka at tumakbo at naglakad. pero nung nalaman mo gaano kasakit madapa. hindi ka na basta-basta tumakbo o naglakad. ganon din sa isang laban. hangga't hindi mo nararanasan ang sakit ng pagkatalo. hindi ka titigil kahit ano man ang mangyari sa'yo. napagod na nga ba ako at nagtanda. o tinuloy ko pa rin ang laban. pero ginamit ko lang sila. sa pag-aakalang inaayos ko ang lahat. pilit kong ipinaparating na para ito sa ikabubuti nila. pero sa huli sila ang nasaktan ko. duwag ako. natakot akong matalo. natakot akong lumaban. hindi ko ipinaglaban kung ano ako. hindi ko namalayan na sa huli ako lang ang walang sugat. para saan pa ang huling halakhak. kung ang kasama ko'y wala ng galak?

mali ba na baguhin ko ang tadhana. matagal ko ng alam na hindi ako ang para sa kanya. pero lintik na lang ang pagkakataon. bakit kung kelan alam kong mali pala tsaka ako nahulog. hindi ba't mas madaling umalis sa isang pag-ibig na nagsimula na bago mo pa malamang mali pala. kaysa sa pag-ibig na alam mong mali na pero heto't nahulog ka pa rin pala. saan ka pa tatakbo. kung ang pinakamatinding pagsubok nito ay nalampasan ko na. ano pa ang magagawa ko. pakiramdam ko nasa ilalim na ako. nahulog ako ng sobrang lalim. hindi ko na alam pano ako tatayo. wala na akong magagawa kundi mabuhay na lang sa ilalim na ito. kung nakikita ko lang ang puso ko. siguro sobrang sakit na nito. pero ano ang magagawa ko. ayon ang tadhana. mali nga bang pilit kong binabago ito. mas lalo nga lang ba akong nasasktan habang pilit kong tinatanggal ang sakit sa puso ko.

bakit dumating ka pa. hindi ko maintindihan. kung hindi ikaw bakit dumating ka pa. pilit ko ng binbura ang lahat. pero dumadating ka pa rin kung kelan ako aalis na. lagi mong ipinaparamdam na hindi ako dapat sumuko. bakit ba hindi ako susuko. ikaw lang naman ang makakapag-paakyat sa'kin mula sa kalalimang ito. sabihin mo. dapat pa ba kitang hintayin. sabi mo hihintayin mo ako. pero ano. pag nagkita tayo. ano na ang mangyayari satin. magiging duwag ka rin ba para iparamdam mo at ipaglaban mo ako. kahit ano naman ang sabihin ko. hindi pa rin ako makawala sa'yo. kanino ako hihingi ng tulong.

RED DAY.ü

2007-07-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

yeah! i want this!!!! hihi..the iPod nano (PRODUCT) RED Special Edition. and Apple will give $10 of its purchase price to the Global Fund to fight AIDS in Africa. saya noh..nakatulong ka pa! pero matagal pa yan..pag-iipunan ko pa!

well anyway..it was Canada Day two days ago..and it was really fun. We celebrated it at Canada Place..malapit sa Port Vancouver wherein we watched two cruise ships leave for Alaska. Pagkapasok mo pa lang ng entrance, bibigyan ka na agad ng small canada flag at temporary tattoo ng maple leaf..haha..dinikit ko nga yun sa pisngi ko eh../gg tapos madaming booths at freebies..isa na don ang department of national defence. we've seen yung actual trucks na ginagamit nila sa war..tapos binigyan pa kami ng mga ballers at mga keychain nung army. Tapos andun din ang truck ng playstation 3..pipila ka tapos bibigyan ka ng five minutes to play on the actual consoles..meron dun PS3 at PSP. paglabas mo bibigyan ka ng beach ball na may nkatatak na playstation.ca..ahihi..nag-enjoy talaga ako dun..

starbucks ay isa sa mga sponsor nung event..at ung booth nila kakaiba. they are giving free taste ng bagong product which is raspberry frapuccino mocha ata un..pero ang kapalit tutulong ka sa paggawa non. haha..i mean..they've got a blender operated by a bicycle..kaya habang pinepedal mo yun eh nabeblend mo na ung frapuccino..ahaha..saya diba..kaso buong araw puno ung pila dun kaya di na ako pumila..nkkpgod kasi at sayang naman ung time..marami pa kaming napuntahan..ung lucky loader sa port vancouver..pag nashoot mo ung 3 out of 5 chips dun sa dapat kalagyan..mananalo ka ng button pin na may strobe light...ahihi..ang swerte ko nga nanalo ako dun. tapos meron din ung hat-making booth..gumawa kami ng pirate hat na may nkasulat na "captain vancouver"..xempre xa ung nakadiscover ng vancouver island..hay..may tattoo ako ng maple leaf sa pisngi..may pirate hat na may canada flag at baller ng navy..mukhang weird pero nde pa ako weird nian..ung iba nga puno na ng tatto ung mukha nila..ahihi..pero enjoy nman..

Fact: Canada is under the rule of the queen..i mean Queen Elizabeth II of United Kingdom..kaya there are two flags na nirace nung umaga..one of united kingdom and one of canada.

at siyempre hindi mwwla ang fireworks..weee..fave ko talaga ang fireworks. pero npgod na kasi ako kakaikot..umuwi na kami bago pa magfireworks..how sad talaga..haha..cguro kasi ayaw akong panoorin ng fireworks na hindi xa kasama(feeling?) ung last na fireworks display na npnood ko kasi was the last day of pyro olympics..at andun xa..pero nde kme mgksma..mdme na kasi tao kaya nde na kami nghanapan..ü

nocturne=night.

2007-06-23T23:15:00.000-07:00

...And i wonder how you are Are you sleeping soundly? You don't quite feel as far Saw your name written on the ceiling Not sure if i'm still dreaming of you I've seen you in my sleep From across the room the clock leers As i try to sleep again I would rather shorten the night Than lengthen the day...

hay. i just love the night. i love the stars. i love the darkness. i love the calmness.
i love when lights try to overcome darkness.
it's when i dream.
and i know that's where i can only see him.

reminds me of those endless night conversations.
"andito ako rooftop. andme stars.."
starting that year, all starry nights have become the only witnesses.
oh, not only the starry ones but those that felt empty.
that was made full.
everytime i talk to him.
it just feel like magic.

i love him.
i really do.
i'm missing him so much it's killing me.

and now my sleep is nearing.
will i ever see him again?

Philippine Independence.

2007-06-17T18:37:00.001-07:00

ahem. bago ako magpost about the title mismo..popost ko muna yung answers dun sa weird moments..hehehe..sowi masyado ako naging busy.

1. miki
2. j9
3. heb
4. art
5. digz
6. locie
7. kiaky

yan na. xD

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Kahapon, sabado pa lang dito. we were invited by the Philippine Consulate to attend the Philippine Independence and Cultural Fiesta at Slocan Park.

A Holy Mass started the program. Then after that, xmpre hindi mawawala ang national anthem. ang tagal ko na pala hindi kinakanta ang "bayang magiliw"..tapos..iba talaga yung feeling pag dito mo xa kinanta..it was like unang beses ko nadama ung kanta..honestly. habang kinakanta ko nga napansin ko ang ganda pala ng meaning niya..sa loob loob ko nga parang naiiyak ako..although hindi ako magaling sa history, lalo na sa kasaysayan ng pilipinas, nagflash sa mind ko ung mga scenes ng war, tska ung pagbaril kay rizal. haha, ang yanga noh! eh pag kasi kinakanta ko yan every monday sa school..kinakanta ko lang para matapos na, minsan nga hindi ko pa talaga kinakanta. or tumatawa pa ako. hehehe..ano kaya nangyari non noh. tama pla cnb nila, pag kinanta mo ung national anthem natin sa ibang bansa tsaka mo madadama..hayy..ewan ko ba!

After nung national anthem natin, may kumanta ng national anthem ng canada, xmpre kasi ung ibang pinoy dito canadian citizens na(in the next 5 yrs i will be one ü). di ko na dedetalyehen ung program, basta buong araw nagkaroon ng mga dances, kumanta pa nga si joey albert dito eh. antanda na pala niya noh!

pero ung sobrang nacute-an ako eh ung cariñosa--our national dance. honestly ngayon lng talaga ako nkakita ng sayaw na toh..nakakatawa dito pa ako nkapanood. ung sayaw is about courtship right? ang mga participants ay isang ala-maria clara at isang lalaking nakabarong. sounds ordinary..pero ung napanood ko, mga bata ung gumanap. ung babae 5 yrs old at ung lalaki 6 yrs old..kaya ang cute tlga nila..sila nga ung prang naging highlight dahil matindi ang audience appeal..hehehe...ü

the day went well..except na super lamig talaga, maulan tska madilim..sayang nga eh, sana umaraw na lang para mas madami pa yung games. pero all-in-all ok naman. ngkaroon ng kainan, xmpre mga filipino foods ang handa..hehehe..nkakamiss ung pagkain jan..^-^

the side of life

2007-06-14T11:35:00.000-07:00

ahihi..wala lang..ang cute ng bagong design ng coke can.
goodluck sa college guys^-^

my life's weird moments.

2007-06-11T12:52:00.000-07:00

haha..wala kasi ako mapost. halos lahat kayo nakapag-post na about the excitement and whatever on your first days on college. ako? naiiwan pa..hehe..sa september pa siguro ako makakapagpost ng ganon! kaya ang ginawa ko na lang nagreminisce ng ilang mga nakakatawa na ewan talaga. haha..^-^

continue reading..cguro makikita nio ung sarili nio on one of those..hehehe..kayo talaga yan..hulaan nio n lng kung san kayo^-^

person 1.> naging crush kita dahil pinahiram mo ako ng ipod.

person 2.> on a typical school day nakita kita sa SM north na umiinom ng cold chocolate sa Bo's Coffee Club.

person 3.> umakyat tayo dun sa bintana sa tapat ng principal's office para hanapin yung mga bayad nung prom.

person 4.> sinabi mo sakin kung bakit artemis ang pangalan mo sa s10.

person 5.> nagtinginan lang tayo pero tumawa na ng sobrang tagal sa Our Lady of Grace parish.

person 6.> nakita kitang na sa'yo yung panyo niya. (may tatak yung panyo kaso pag sinabi ko alam niyo na agad kung sino!)

person 7.> sakin mo ipinasukat ung singsing na ibibigay mo sa kanya kasi pagdating sa SM san lazaro tsaka lang nagdesisyon na singsing yung ibibigay mo.

wahehe..sorry na..hindi naman masyado weird noh! pero sana nag-enjoy ka basahin. Goodluck sa mga college life natin^-^

A Confession

2007-06-02T23:46:00.000-07:00

"Don't dare to change..."

those were his last words after i've finally confessed myself.
now i can sleep with a smile on my face.
i finally realized to tell him the truth..
he is the only one i've been dreaming of.
but when i decided to fall for him, i already accepted that he can't be mine.

At first i said sorry..i've broken my promise with you.
"I've fallen for you..I'm sorry.'

amf. super nahirapan ako umamin..naka-ilang text kaya ako?
tapos..nung inamin ko na.
ang sabi niya.
"alam ko na yun..matagal na."
wah! super nahiya ako! pano niya kaya nalaman?
"nrrdman ko. di ko lng alam kelan ngstart."
wah..nkakahiya talaga..alam mo ba ung feeling na un?

well i guess the closure is best after all.
hindi naman talaga to closure but its just a confession.
a confirmation.
finally the truth had set me free.
ive been carefully taking every moment para hindi niya mahalata.
pero wala pa rin pala.
sensitive talaga siya.
kaya naman pala hindi niya ako nasasaktan masyado.

haha. parang big deal noh!
im lucky to have him as my friend.
dahil kahit nasabi ko to(or naramdaman daw niya) hindi niya ako iniwasan or iiwasan.
and im thankful he has given me all the chances to love him.
parang..for me its enough na pinayagan niya akong mahalin siya.

haha. wala na naman kwenta yung post ko! well..goodluck nga pala kay miki..sana mapili yung essay niya..tska sa mga magkikita kita bukas..sana makuha niyo ung 1k..ingat kau lagi^_^

tamad mag-post.

2007-05-31T21:54:00.001-07:00

haha. napansin ko ang tamad ko pala mgpost..everytime haharap ako sa computer nwawala sa isip ko ung mga dpt kong ipost. mdme na ako naiicp kaso prng nwwla tlg. cguro kasi mrmi ng laro ang computer ko..hehe..dsl kasi, tpos malaki ung memory kaya mas enjoy ko mglaro noh..hehehe..

cmula nung dumting kami dito, napansin ko mas close na kami nung mom ko. dati kasi sa pilipinas, wla tlga kaming time mkapag-usap tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay. im busy sa school, xa naman sa mga organizations na sinalihan niya. and i guess that gap between us created much problems..i usually blame it to her pag may ginagawa ako na nagagalit siya, kasi nga hindi nia ako kilala..hindi nia ako pinilit kilalanin. my friends know me better than my family. tama naman un diba, kaso parang hindi n tlga ako nkakapagkwento sa kanya. pero nung dumting kami dito, nag-iba na.

kami lng kasi dito sa bahay, ung kapatid ko pumpsok na, tpos ung dad ko bumlik sa indonesia because wla pa xang work dito. we started to talk things na pangfamily ba..mtgal na rn nman kasi akong di nkkrinig ng stories about them..and also im not that much interested sa family feuds noh..

then i started to learn much about my past. my mom told me na nung pinanganak ako, september 9, 1991, that was also the date my father saw his name on the manila bulletin's list ng board exam passers. nsabi ko..haha..swerte talaga ako! ako pa ung unang apo sa father's side..sabi nga nila dumating daw ako as blessing to our family. natouch nga ako nung nrinig ko un. tpos, cnb pa sken ng mom ko na alam nia pa ung mga suot ko sa lahat ng nging birthdays ko. it was like..wow..tlga..dati i thought na wla talaga xang pakialam sken tpos ngyon kinekwento nia na naaalala nia pa ung mga bagay na un..

habng ngkekwento xa may ktext ako sa fone. tpos bglang sabi sa text "sama mo n lng aq jan". i merely thought it was a joke...kasi sino ba naman ung magsasabi nian sa ganitong oras..at ska xa ung tipong mdlas magjoke ng mga gustong gwen sa buhay..kya ayan..nababansagang "paasa". marami nrn kasi kaming mga moments na ganito..ung mga super sweet ang atmosphere..kaso nde nman ntutuloy..kasi nga it was just meant to make me happy.

kya i jokingly said , "cge b, pgblik ko sama ka na sken pgpunta dito. klngan nga lang may visa ka na noh" then..nkakagulat na cnb nia may US at canada visa na xa..and reserved plane tickets. it was like..woah..prang after this text lang ready ka na pumunta dito noh! joke b tlga to o anO? then i said.."ok lng kaya na taung dlwa dito?" and then i stumbled and completely forgot what my mom was saying when the reply was "sa family ko ok lng, seo?" huh? i started to react and think na hindi na joke un. he already mean what he was saying. his family kasi is the one who mostly make decisions for his life and future kaya nkkgulat lng na pati sa family nia ayos lng.

i replied.."cge kekwentuhan ko mom ko..cguro pwd na pag tpos na tau both ng college db..wee excited na tlg ako.." but damn, smart was having delays again..excited pa naman ako sa reply nia..it was like..deciding moment na yun noh! 3 hours have passed..wla preng reply..wonder kung ngalit xa or nwlan ng load..xmpre nde ko nman xa mttwgan dhl anlayo ko..not like when we were there..pag nde xa ngreply..twag ako tpos sa fone n lng kme mg-usap. hayyzz..im already getting sick of the wait. ako na ung nag-initiate.."hoy asan ka na? ng-expire n b unli mo?..total eclipse ung music dito sa tim hortons(a cafe just like starbucks)..and i really miss you"..then, hoping about a reply about the conversation..i just smiled when i read.."miz n dn kta"..merely ending the topic.

hay. wla na nmang kwento ang post ko noh! pero hindi. it was like..after that conversation sa text..i realized na,,i can change destiny. hnd nio cguro ako maintindihan..pero ang alam ko kasi na i cannot change anu man ang mgyre sken ngyon, but suddenly i thought..i have the power to make my life..and get the most out of it.

HE's MY TWIN SOUL..

heaven by your side.

2007-05-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

"love isn't finding someone you can live with..but finding someone you can't live without."

haha..i was browsing the blogskins website to find something good for the future..but i came up to the skin showing the quote above. sayang nga lang, maganda sana kaso click to nav xa..better find something na "isang bagsak" (sbe nga ni heb) lng.

the quote struck me as it is..nothing special..but the quote left a mark on my head. nsbi ko..oo nga noh..they've been finding those persons to whom they can live their forever..those who will love them and care for them till the end of time...pero npansin ko lang,,kahit sino naman pwedeng gawin yun sa'yo diba? then how'd you find that special someone kung every man on this earth can care for you and stay with you forever? of all the man willing to be yours..cno ang pipiliin mo? hehe..aun..tama ung quote diba..finding someone you can't live without. oo..kaya kang alagaan at samahan ng lahat ng tao sa mundo..pero may isa lang sa puso mo na hindi ka tlaga mabubuhay ng wla un. and that's what we call love.

then came the first statement. xmpre after finding someone you can't live without..you want now to stay with that person forever..kasi nga hindi ka mabubuhay ng wala xa right? that's why they have to say.."you're mine" and the like para mgng till death to us part na ang drama db? after a relationship..there comes marriage..the greatest promise on earth between two lovers.

marriage. what a word. a word derived from love. a word meant to be forever. pero bkt gnon..db supposed to be love ang bubuo sa marriages? why is it there are "arranged marriages"? bkt kaya nila ginawa un? it's bad to say this pero prang gnamit nila ang marriage for other things. they've taken advantage of what it is not supposed to do..for example sa business..to keep it through ages..the siblings must continue marry another business associate or whatsoever. otherwise hindi na macocontinue ung business. it's so sad na wala na silang karapatang mamili ng taong pkksalan nila, ung taong hnd cla mbubuhay pag wla un..pero kung un talaga ang culture nila wala naman akong karapatang i-question un.

hayy..bakit ko nga ba naisip ang mga bagay na to? bata pa ako..edi syempre nanonood ako ng tv. sobrang cliche na nga ung stories about arranged marriages na..hnd natutuloy dahil ung dlwang un may ibang minahal..pero its not always that. minsan ung mga arranged marriages din ang nagiging way para magng cla. it may be because of the pressure from their parents..or somehow they have learned to love each other kaya nggng successful ang isang arranged marriage.

marriage..arranged or not...has destiny behind its back. hehehe..nkklungkot man para sa iba(skn na dn)..pero gnon talga..fate has decided it. =P

...

2007-05-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

i'll be here.
why?
i'll be waiting here.
for what?
i'll be waiting...for you...
so if you come here..you'll find me.
i promise.

err..i just hate myself.

i found myself dancing waltz.

whnever he goes away...i reach out and long for him.

whnver he comes my way..i opt to deny myself.

uh. so bad.

the blog. amp wla ako maicp na title.

2007-05-24T14:14:00.000-07:00

npnsin ko puno na ng pics tong blog ko. i haven't really wrote about what's me and who's me. prang tntmad kz ako mag-diary-type blog nuong mga pnhong un. natrauma ako mgpost mxdo bout myself..nung naaalala ko ung mga posts na dinelete ko out of the non-privacy of this blog..that posts must've been the longest posts i've ever made.pero ok n dn un. so much about the past. ü

hehe. kwento. anu nga bng kkwento ko. naiinis ako..kasi nmn i really had trouble about entering a new school ds new sem. i've already graduated highschool..and as what UBC said..(sounds like the counterpart of UP d2) i only need a post-secondary year to comprise with the pre-requisites for that subjects i'll be taking in college. but i was so shocked na ang hrap pla ng system dito. College schools do not necesarily mean the programs here can have you graduated in 4 years, or get a bachelor's degree. iba pla.

those that are called "colleges" are those schools that you will spend a year or two to selectively take what your full bachelor's degree is all about...and then after that time proceed to the "universities" that will make the 3-4 years completion of your degree. they have adopted this system to maximize those who graduate for each course. di tulad satin, kala mo andme nila nung first year..then bumgsak..nagshift. kaya aun..ang konti ng grumaduate. here, the first two years are enough to somehow 'really' decide on what your career path is..then proceeding to your 3rd year means that you know that you can actually pass and graduate. and also..first year college students here are on the age bracket of 17-21..already adolescents..those who can actually pursue their career at a right age..preparing you for the emotional, social and mental shock of being a career-oriented person.

first..ang problema ko is my age. age has become the analysis of what level you will be in. dito they wouldn't mind if you already finished highschool at 15 or 16..they mind what age are you so that all the information thought to you would be appropriate of how mature you are now that you are older. since i studied early and was accelerated, im only 15..putting me into grade 10. woah! that sucks! 3 years more before i actually go to college? what the..but as ive said UBC confirmed that i only need one year. so time to relieve myself from enroling in those secondary schools and finally go to college.

the next school ive checked was a college school. dito daw pwd ko na itake ung 1 year na klngan ko. but..so much of that not having international standards..that school didn't even recognize what our F137 looks like..and even didn't honor my diploma! err..the diploma should prove that im already graduated right? pero iba pla dito. they need the Transcript of Records..which turns to be the F137 im holding. but the problem is ang sistema ng school ntn..klngan ng request kaya nde skn bngay ung original. all i have here was a certified true copy. sounds ok..but the admissions officer requested for my original copy. damn it. ive said..."get it down my country!"

then. ngyon.my problem has already been solved. gmgwa na daw cla letter to address CCSHS. isa pa, since i have no course outlines of what subjects we've already taken..(adv. chem, adv. physics, calc.) nde tuloy nila malaman kung anong subject equivalent un dito. so para nde na mhrpan pa both sides..i mean pra nde na ako mghakungkat ng course outline nten..ive decided to back-track those courses..those highschool courses this first sem. then the next sem will be the start of my college. nga pla ive changed my course..i finally decided to take BS Pharmacy..since medical technologists here are not really needed..they've got the technology to analyze blood samples..kya aun.

actually..kht ano nman pwd..pre-med nman un prehas db..kxe magmemedicine ako. but what im afraid of is ung tamarin akong mag medicine pa..bka in the future..auko na bgla magmedicine ganun..kaya ive thought i will finish my pharmacy degree first pra if ever nga tamarin ako..at least meron na akong degree..di tulad nung iba na kht ano n lng ang pre-med nila..tpos di pa nla tnpos..ung mga excited magmedicine..two years premed lng kinuha. at the middle tinamad cla. aun..kht 6 years na clang ng-aaral it's like wla pren clang ntpos kz dey ddnt have the degree...mhhrpan clang humnap ng trabho. to start all over again is such a mess.

well un lng muna for now. im still deciding on what i really feel. kya enough muna of those love stories..^_^

THE SCIENTIST.

2007-05-21T03:22:00.000-07:00

haha.
alam mo nmn mgling ako sa science db? hehe..joke lng..im talking about the song..mtgl ko n dn xa nde nppknggan..pero d most striking line..

"..tell you i set you apart.."

someday mllaman mo na pinkawalan kita. aw..howsad noh..TT_TT

btw..nghalungkat kz ako ng diary ko..at nkakita ako nga mga...pangyayari xmpre...hnd yan sunod-sunod..random..hehe..^_^

haha..xmpre mhrap intindhn pero kaya mo yn.^_^

scene 1 : sa room

(pgktpos ng klase sa PE....)

"mgpagupit ka na..mge-exam na nxt wk.."

"tumwag ka muna!.."

"pano pag di ako nktwag?"

"kaw lgot kay mam bataller..hehe.."

scene 2 : art's house

(after ng isang sayaw..)

(patakas na umiinom ng ice tea)

"oi bwl mg ice tea! sbe ni kim un db?.."

(bwal kz pagktpos sumyaw mbbgla daw ung tiyan mo..eh lht nmn umiinom eh?)

"punasan mo nga ung mukha mo..e2 panyo oh.."(bgay panyo kulay purple)

Scene 3 : sa tapat ng principl's office

(lunch time nung boy's and girl's week)

(yayakapin ni jacko)

(aagawin sabay sabi).."akin lang xa..^_^"

(speechless...^_^)

"db xir ako no. 1 mo? o..o..sbe sau jacko no.2 ka lng eh!"

scene 4 : corridor ng 2nd floor

(a week before april 3 T_T)

"klngan dis wk 18 hours kta ksma ha.."

"pano un di na ako uuwi?"

"kung pwd lng eh.."

scene 5 : sidewalk ng calhigh

(uwian..as usual pgktpos mglaro sa compxop)

"nmimiss ko na magpizza.."
"kain tau bukas.."

"talaga bukas na?.."

"taung dlwa lng ah!"

(wtf..nde nia cngot tnong ko!)

surfs the net

2007-05-02T13:20:00.000-07:00

hayy..xmpre..anu pa nga nman ang ggwin ko dito kundi umupo at maginternet mghapon. first tym mgdsl ako noh, kaya super naadict na ako sa youtube. balak ko lang sana panoorin ung last episode ng full house dhl nka 2 beses na naulit na un sa GMA pero nde ko pdn npnood un. tpos nun..pinanood ko na ung buong series sa youtube..16 episodes..1episode/1 hour and 10 minutes. at sobrang natuwa ako kay song hye kyo..c jessie..kaya nghanap pa ako ng ibang vid. at ito ung ilan sa mga yon.

HWANGJINI,movie, showing June 6, 2007 in Korea

Hwangjini-- based xa sa isang Korean novel...at nung napanood ko ung trailer, it is so much like Memoirs of a Geisha..un nga lng, korean version. Song Hye Kyo plays the lead role (prang c Zhang ziyi) as a Chosun-era gisaeng(a female entertainer..pra ngang geisha). at nung nkta ko to, i cant believe na nkaya ni song hye kyo ang ganito ka-challenging na role(meron kz ditong ilang bed scenes)..prang big switch..bglang change image xa..from being an easy-going wife ni justtin lee, ngayon isang geisha. pero mgling tlg xa. and im a big fan of her! eto ung link ng trailer...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKj14_f_yqo

MY GIRL AND I ,movie, showed 2005

My Girl and I--pansin mo ung pnglan prang My Sassy Girl. and yeah, itong movie na to mssbe kong kahanay ng My Sassy Girl series, pero hnd kadugtong ung kwento ha! Starring Song Hye Kyo(again..xmpre!) at si Cha Tae Hyeon(xa ung bidang lalaki sa My Sassy Girl). At kahanay nga xa ng My Sassy Girl Series dhl ung kwento niya is about love. A tragic love story of a schoolboy falling in love with a schoolgirl in highschool but discovers later that she is gravely ill. cute nung trailer..mejo mlungkot ung story pero mgnda pren si song hye kyo..hehehe..di q pa alam ending eh..pero later panonoorin ko rin sa youtube ung buong movie. the following link is for the trailer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXbIY4s-EVo

<<-----this scene daw as what ive heard is shot in Subic, Philippines...ewan ko lng kung totoo! un ung sbe ng mga taga-youtube..

FULL HOUSE,drama series (KBS 2), showed 2004

Full house--cno nga bang mkakalimot sa kwento ni Jessie Han at Justin Lee? Starring Song Hye Kyo as Han Ji-eun, and Jung Ji Hoon(Rain) as Lee Young-jae. this series tells about a story of love that may seem impossible but they proved it to be true. Han Ji-eun, a writer has her house, the full house that was sold to famous actor Lee Young-jae by her "trusted friends", and since the full house is the only possession ji-eun has, she can't give this up so easily. the two agreed to have a contract marriage, with the conditions that divorce will be established 6 months after the contract, and the house will be returned to Han Ji-eun in that time. The contract was easily signed by the two parties, not knowing that each and everyday they get in touch with each other may lead to love. Ji-eun first felt that she's in love with Young-jae, but since the marriage is only a contract, and Young-jae has his childhood love which is Kang Hye-won(Lorraine Kang) but loves their other friend, Yoo Min-hyuk, she thought that being with him is only a dream. Meanwhile, Ji-eun's boss, which is Yoo Min-Hyuk(Luigi Yoo) has his own feelings for Ji-eun and tried to get her from Young-jae, which later realizes that now she loves Han Ji-Eun. At the end, the love square has settled finally and the marriage between Han Ji-eun and Lee Young-jae turned not only to be a contract but is always a promise to everlasting love. haha..e2 ung link nung trailer.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xavkoBgw4V0

Additional information pla for full house.

Song Hye Kyo won the best actress award and most popular actress award for this series

Bi Rain and Song Hye Kyo won the Best Couple award, still for this series.

haha.

2007-04-26T17:24:00.001-07:00

haha.
wala lang.
dont ever mind the title.

nandito pa rin naman ako.
buhay, gumagalaw, naglalaro.
naglalaro.
oo naglalaro.
nakikipaglaro.
saan?
sa oras.
sa panahon.
sa pagkakataon.

hindi ko alam bakit naging ganon.
pinag-isipan ko ng matagal.
matagal.
araw-araw.
buong gabi.
hangga't may oras.
hanggang maubos ang oras.

plinano ko ng mabuti.
pag ganito, ganito.
pag ganyan, ganyan.

nakapagdesisyon na ako.
oo.
alam mo ba?
matagal na to.
kaso.
sabi mo mangako ako.
oo.
nangako ako.
tumupad lang ako.

pero bakit ganon?
plinano ko na wag mo ng malaman.
haha.
oo.
ako lang ang makakaalam.
ng ano?
ng saya.
ng galak.

ng sakit.
ng hapdi.
iniibig kita.
ano?
oo tama ang narinig mo.
iniibig kita.

hindi mo dapat malaman.
bakit?
sabi mo sa pangako.
hinding-hindi ako dapat umibig sa'yo.

hindi ko sasabihin.
bakit?
mahihirapan ka.
diba nahirapan ka nga sa kanya?
ayokong maging pabigat sa'yo.
gusto ko maging masaya ka.
kasama ako.
bilang kaibigan mo.

pero bakit ganon?

tama ang plano ko.
alam kong nkatakda na ang buhay mo.
ikaw na ang nagsabi.
may taong nakatadhana na sa'yo.

kaya hindi na dapat ako makigulo.
ayokong isipin mo ako.
isipin bilang isang nasasaktang tao.
gusto ko maging malaya ka.

tama lang di ba?
pero bakit klngan kong magsisi.
na hindi ko sinabing.
mahal kita?

haha.
hanggang ngayon.
naglalaro.
nakikipaglaro.
sa pagkakataon.
na dapat araw-araw sambitin ko sa'yo.
sa panahon.
malayo na tayo sa isa't-isa.
sa oras.
dahil hindi ko na iyon mbabalikan pa.

buhay canadian?

2007-04-16T19:59:00.001-07:00

"flight 046 Air Canada from Tokyo to Vancouver, arrived safely at Vancouver International Airport at exactly 11:05 am this 3rd day of April, 2007"

haha..yan ung unang mga salitang narinig ko nung pumsok ako sa bansang toh! CANADA. hmm..actually mtagal ko nang pangarap toh! Grade 5 pa lng ako nun nung tinanong ako ni mama kung gusto daw namin pumunta dun. At xmpre..dhl bata pa ako..ang alam ko lng d2 eh mgnda to at may snow. sa super init ng pilipinas gugstuhin mo tlgang mgkasnow. kaya kht anong mangyari gusto ko pumunta dun! mrunong ako mag-ice skating kaya alam ko nde ako mhhrpan..hahaha..nkktwa noh..prang adjustment lng eh ice skating..

pumasok ang high school days ko at akala ko patay na ung pangarap na iyon. hindi ko inaashan nung april bago ako magthird year eh tinatanong na ako kung gusto ko na pumunta dun. hayy..bsta mhbang story..mmya ko na dudugtungan ung emo na yan..balik muna ako sa buhay dito.

pagkababa ng eroplano sa lupa..una kong nkta sa bintana ko ung mga bundok na may yelo sa taas. wow! akala ko editted lng ung mga nkkta ko sa postcards kxe prang impocble na sa taas lng ngyeyelo. un pla hnd. gnon pla tlg un. haha.

pagkalapag ko sa airport xmpre thmk ka lng muna. alam mong nag-iingles ang mga tao dito at kung pwede tumingin-tingin ka lng muna. hayy..alam mo bang wlang aircon ang airport? poor noh. nde. nde klngan ng airport ng aircon. dhl ang labas mukhang aircon na. ang nand2 sa airport ngyon ay heater, sa tagalog pang-painit. hahaha. nasabi ko sa sarili ko, kung sa pilipinas may heater malamang todo nagmumura na ang mga tao dahil sa sobrang init dun ay hnd mo kailngan ng pampainit. hahaha.

ung tita ko nkatira na dito for 17 years. at sapat na un pra iguide kmeng mga bagong pasok pa lng noh! hehe..cla ung nagsundo smen d2 sa airport. tpos ung bahay nila kxe may taas at baba..normal lng un dhl lahat ng bahay dito ay may basement at first floor..hehehe..nkktuwa at makakakita na rin ako ng basement. pinauupahan ung first floor kaya dun kme titira, xmpre mgbabayad. wla namang libre dito. joke. may libre din dito. libre na ung aircon. ung ginaw. haha.

at buti na lng tlga ang talino ng mama ko. lahat ng damit na dala nia ay lahat na ng jacket sa closet ko. pag lumabas ka, prang 20x ng lamig ng einstein. matapang na ang hindi magmedyas at magpantalon. dakila ka kung magsasando ka at magmimini skirt sa ganitong spring. at kahit sa loob ng bahay, hindi man lang ako makapagshort o kya magtshirt. laging may jacket o kaya sweater. hayy, anhrap noh. hnd ka tlga pagpapwisan dito pero sobrang manginginig naman ang ktwan mo sa gabi. tatlo na ung kumot ko pero giniginaw pren ako. haha.

dito walang tricycle, pedicab at jeep. lahat ng tao dito may kotse, o kung wala naman magtiis ka maglakad. bus lang at tren ang meron dito, at ang bus ay dumadaan kada isang oras. haha, di tulad ng pilipinas na kht anong oras pwd kang sumkay ng jeep o bus o tricycle o pedicab. narealize ko na importante nga dito ang oras. kung malapit lng, e di lakarin mo. pag malayo, dpat abangan mo ung bus. xmpre hnd rin pwdng kung saan saan ka lng sasakay. merong tatlong malapit na bus stop dito, at dun lng pwd. haha. pag tatawid ka, pipindutin mo ung button sa may poste nung stoplight, at may sensor ung bawat stoplight kaya kung wla nmang kotse eh bbgyan ka ng allotted tym pra tumwid. cguro mga 15 seconds kugn mlpt lng tas maximum na ng 30 kung malayo.

malapit lng kasi ang mall, park at grocery sa bahay namin. saya noh, kya pumunta ako sa mall. akalain mo nga naman na mainit ang mall. wla ng aircon na tulad sa pinas sa pinto pa lng may may air curtain. haha. tama lng na mainit ang mall, kundi namatay na kmeng lahat kung may aircon dito. at xmpre mejo umaga ako pumunta, at spring ngayon, may pasok pa ang mga bata. kaya kadalasan mo makikita sa mall ay mga matatanda. nkkgulat dhl kht disabled ay may sriling mobility device, ung prang wheelchair na may kotse, saya noh, kht matanda na cla cla pren ung nagogrocery at namamalengke. pag dun ka tatawid sa wlang stoplight, automatic hihinto ang kotse para sayo. mglang db? haha.

tungkol sa presyo. alam naman natin na dolyar ang pera dito at hindi piso. kaya mkkta mo ang isang set ng personal computer sa halagangg $999.99, hindi ka namamalikmata at hnd rn yan isang libong piso. isang libong dolyar yan, at ang isang dolyar ay nagkakahalaga ng Php45. haha, akala mo mura noh? pero yan ang binili kong pc. windows vista n yan, at ung monitor na ksma ay ung manipis lng at widescreen. dito wla nga plang dial-up connection, DSL lng o kya ung wireless. ngyon gamit ko pa lng itong laptop ko na may wireless connection. sa wednesday pa kxe ikakabit ang DSL nmen.

tungkol sa araw. atrasado ng eksaktong 39 oras ang oras dito laban sa oras ng pinas, ibig sbhn kung alas dose na dito ng gabi, april 16, sa pilipinas ay alas tres na ng hapon april 17. kaya ang hirap abutan ng mga kaibigan ko kasi kailngan gabi na ako maginternet kxe sa kanila hapon pa lng. dito magugulat ka kasi ang araw ay hindi pa bumababa ng alas singko ng hapon. oo, kung dati ay naglalaro ako sa labas at kung dumilim na ay papasok na ako dahil alam kong alas-sais na, ngayon hindi na, dahil kung susundan ko iyon ay didilim dito mga alas nuwebe na ng gabi at sobrang late na ako. kaya sobrang nahihirapan ako matulog, nakaktulog ako mga ala-una na, dahil dun tlgang madilim na. tpos gigising ka ng alasdose ng tanghali at mukhang alas-otso sa pinas ung araw dahil wla pa sa tuktok ng ulo mo.

hayy..gnon man kaganda ang buhay dito, eksaktong mga oras bago ako sumakay ng eroplano ay gusto ko ng magback-out. totoong pinangarap ko ang mbuhay dito, pero bakit kailangan pa nilang ipakilala sa kin ang masayang buhay sa pilipinas na hnd mtutumbsan ng kahit anong lamig o ganda ng lugar na toh? bkt pa nila sken ipinatikim ang saya ksma ng mga kaibigan ko sa pag-aaral ko ng highscool? bkt klngan pa nilang iaward sken ang 7th honorable mention at ang pgkakataong makapasa sa unibersidad ng pilipinas sa kursong gusto ko kung papupuntahin pa nila ako dito? i mean, kasi wla na toh sa plano nung dumting ang visa ko. maayos kong inaayos ang buhay ko sa pilipinas. mgnda ang buhay ko dun. hnd ko kailngan ng snow ng dolyar o ng mgndang bahay. kailngan ko ung saya na mbuhay dun. ung syang hnd mo mbibili. saya na mksma ung mga kaibigan ko, ung mga ngng parte ng buhay ko. alam ko naman na kaya ko dun eh, kht nga mag-isa lng ako, dahil alam ko na matalino ako at kasama ko ung mga taong pwdng tumulong sken ng wlang kapalit. kaso itinadhana na nag-iisa lng ako sa pamilyang ito na ayaw lumipad. lahat cla gusto. at anong mggwa ko? sabi ko nga iwanan n lng nila ako dito pero ayaw nila. kaya no choice ako.

at mukha mang masaya ako sa pagdedescribe ng buhay ko dito ay hindi tlga. gusto ko lng sabihin na napipilitan lng akong mabuhay dito, kahit na cnb sken ng tatay ko na pangarap ng bawat pilipinong makapunta at mabuhay ng ibang bansa. pero ibahin mo ako dhl hnd ko pinangarap ito sa ganitong edad. alam mo b kung anong pngrap ko? simple lng. mkatapos ng pag-aaral sa pilipinas, makapagtrabaho ng maayos. mgkaroon ng msyang pamilya sa bahay na ako ang nagptayo, kasama ng taong pinakamamahal ko. totoo pangarap ko malibot ang mundo, pero hindi ang tumira sa ibang mundo. gusto ko lilibot lng ako sa mundo, ksma ung pamilya ko. gusto kong mamatay sa lugar kung saan ako ipinanganak, sa pilipinas. ksma ko ung mahal ko sa libing. ayon. un lng. simple lng un at alam kong kaya ko yon kht sa pilipinas lng ako. tma ako db?

mlaoginse?? jokes..

2007-03-02T04:24:00.000-08:00

my favorite flower..the red rose..

30 true feelings of girls..
(with my comments..)..kakatuwa..

1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
haha..that’s true..girls aren’t naturally vocal sa boys..xmpre pag girls dun cla mdlas mg-open!

2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.
actually nde nman tlga mhrap kunin ung apology nila..dpat lng bngyan mo xa nga time to think of it..

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves ..which is why it is so hard for her to "get over him" after the relationship's over.
haha..gnon tlga..kht sobrang sket n nde ka pa rn mgalit-galit..

4. If a girl Loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guy
gnyan ang in love..^_^

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
yah that’s right..sobrang kaka-blush nun..

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually is not sure how to react to them.
yeah right..nde lam kung mtutuwa ka o think na bola lng un..

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?
yah..tried and tested..over 50% fall for those with playful jokes and smiles..

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.
girls are so afraid of rejection…sobra silang nssktan..

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
mejo mgulo toh..

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves..which explains why most girls like writing journals.
haha..gnon tlga..we love to talk about what we feel..but naturally not with boys of course..xmpre with ourselves and girl friends..

11. NEVER tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.especially when she is expecting that you can't say it to her even for a joke.....
mskt msbhan ng wla kang kwenta..tama..

12. BEING TOO SERIOUS CAN TURN A GIRL OFF.
girls naturally love those who can make them laugh..they feel na those persons can make them happy for the rest of their lives..

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start calling her friends to spread the news.
haha..kya nga kapag ngyyre ung mga gnon knbksan alam na ng buong klase!

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.
sure thing..

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.
din na mxdo uso ung ligaw-ligaw noh…

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave her.
its not because they don’t what to go but they love to go out na wlang ibang iniicp..tma b?

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.
broken promises are the worst thing a girl can hear…kya be sure to keep what you say..

18. DON'T TRY TO GUESS WHAT A GIRL IS FEELING. Ask her.
mnsan iba tlga ang nppkita sa nararamdman..gnon lng tlga ang way pra maiwasan ang sad things..
19. Hearing the words "I Love You" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.
hmm..^_^

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.
pansn ko nga,.,pag andun na cla maaalala nilang bkt kya non di mxdo nppncn?

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
kasi lahat ng girls merong common factor sa kilig..

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.
totoo ba toh..ewan ko..

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.
hahaha..tma yan.

24. Girls Love having fun!
they love to be happy..and happy..and never be sad again..

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.
minsan nga kahit smile lng...^_^

26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.
sa kanila lagi ng-oopen ang isang girl..

27. girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get to their "prettier friend"..
ewan...cguro kung like nia na ung guy..pro kung friends cla nung guy tutulungan nga pa nga yon..

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.
see..hanggang d2 happiness nklgay..^_^

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will Love and care for them.
that's why minsan they don't put up standards..

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel Loved..
that's the thing one girl wants to feel for all of her life..^_^

the feeling...

2006-12-29T00:59:00.000-08:00

hugs? holding hands? hatiran? kulitan?

they're all happy for me..happy coz im back..smiling again..
and back with someone they all think im in love with..
but..

they dont know WHAT IT FEELS..to be like this..
they dont know what is really going on..
but it is just fine..if they think that way then..why not?
it's happy to hear those people cheering for you..
but sometimes it hurts..

especially when you know..whatever you do..IT CAN'T BE TRUE..
We swore a promise to ourselves...
and with that, nothing else will happen..

I know A LOT of things about him..
the way he thinks..the way he does these things..
and all those sweetness will just fall in one of his characteristics..
a sweet, caring and loving FRIEND..
and..that's ALL..

i'm not sad if that is the case..
The truth is..I'm happy because even if we don't really love each other..
we have the happiness in our hearts...
and that is more important..
hope this'll last forever..and ever.. ^_^

Someday, somehow..you'll learn..you'll know..what i really felt for you..

right now im such a numb man..
im even numb to happiness..to sadness..
although i know it is there..i cant feel it..

and that's why im not ready to fall in love again..
sometimes you just have to think of other things..
other than this crazy feeling..

today im just hoping to erase all this numbness..because it makes me feel worse..

"i'll forever be your friend..your BEST friend..."

aLoNe...

2006-12-05T03:38:00.000-08:00

"there's no way i could be bitter..
nor hurt..
coz there' s just no right for me to feel it.."

[sounds more bitter right?]
[that's why i hate those lines...]

but now..
all i have to say..
im enjoying my life..lets just say im only bidding LOVE goodbye..
the feeling that gave me a lot of pains..
a lot of tears..
but most of all..it gave me a hell lot happiness more than anyone could imagine..
and that's a brighter side for you..

well im not saying bye to love for all..
love..you know..love for your special someone..
im just not addicted to that things nowadays..
all i can have are..a lot of crush and admirations..etc.
but..a feeling greater than that..i think I can't enter one right now..
heart is..UNDER CONSTRUCTION..ü

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let's say i've already baded goodbye,,
so what's just happened to shyrr magne lelis nowadays?
the 2nd floor won the MAMs..
einstein placed 1st..[woo!!]
newton 2nd..
prism 3rd..
the einsteinians recently adopted a family of cats living in their room..(ü)
a total of 5 gold plus 1 silver..[sounds nice..im so glad]
we've rearranged our "achievements corner" that day,,
I already felt it was friday..

well..since the english month has just finished..
next is the boys and girls week..
and i was assigned to be the counterpart of Mrs. Clarisa Avila..
so I'm the one to teach Basic and Advanced Chemistry..
sounds happy coz she trusted me..(:D)
but I feel a lot of pressure..im also nervous.. :(
hope i can surpass this!

I owe diana a lot..
a lot..for mistaking her name..[sorry na]
i dunno what had just happened to my stupid mouth..
but when my mind calls diana's name..
my tongue just said the name of someone else..
sounds that she got irritated about it..that's why I apologized so much..
[dnt want to share what that name was]

but anyway..don't wanna think about it...
All i can say is to enjoy life..
live each day to the fullest..

don't be afraid to tell your loved one that you love him/her..
its just that..
tomorrow might never come..
in that way you'll not face regret at the end...

bye for now...ü

wahehehehe..sayanesz...

2006-11-17T06:46:00.000-08:00

bday po ni kim ngayon..at ni angie...tpos honor's convocatioN! so happy na ngbunga rn ang efforts ko..at inaamin ko it is MORE than I expected..

punta kme SM..ayown..gumala..kumain..ang saya tlga! as in prang wlang problema..nakakamiss tlga ang mga kaibigan ko..sarap kumain..habang kumakain kme ansya tlga..sayang nga lang umuwi ng maaga ang celebrant..pero worth it nman kxe may surprise xa sa bahay,,hehehe..ayown naiwan kme..at ngtwanan..kodakan..inenjoy ng nmen ang moment sa may "kape"-han..

Tokyo-tokyo 2..nsa tabi kxe kme ng mirror.[ntkpan ako ni gwanin..pero aus lng..]

sa toy kingdom..may nkta kxe kami na cute na hat..tpos ayown..cnubukan nmen isuot ke kim..kaso kasya na sa mukha nia..kaya..ayan..[ako kumukuha..kya wla ako jan]

sa "kape"-han..habang hinihintay ang sundo.maiba..hehehe..[c barbie kumukuha]
.actually drama lng yan..pra maiba...

Ayan..model ng cp ko noh..sa salamin ulet..kya gnyan..[si barbie nsma]

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hahaha..ayown lng..sna maulit uli yan..anniv na pla ng junx bukas..hayy..

last ko na ata yan..kxe aalis na ako sa susunod na taon eh..

kya chinerish ko yan ng sobra..

waaahh..aiiyak na ao..huhuhu..T_T

auko pa..auko pa alis..huhuhu...

LOVE...is an unending feeling..

2006-11-10T19:18:00.000-08:00

My favorite song as of the moment..

WALTZ , Hale

I hate the way you are
So mean to me by far
The most frigid girl
That i have ever known

You speak loudly, but
When i'm not around
You'll be just like them
So shallow and obnoxious

Please...
That's enough (2x)
Please...

I've said this a million times before
And i'm sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

You said that you'd call
But time you'll be at home
But you never did
You said you did mean to

Now i'm outraged
As if we're engaged
You made me realize
I'm just your alibi

Please...
That's enough (2x)
Please...

I've said this a million times before
And i'm sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

And all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

I hate you..

wahehe..sobrang gnda ng kantang 2..adik n nga ako eh..mtgal ko ng hinihintay ang kantang may ganyang meaning../no1

niwey..nde nman yan ang nrrmdman ko..well ang gnda lng kxe.."but you're all that i need"..kht gano pa xa kagalit sa mahal nia wla xang mggwa kxe mahal na mhal nia tlga un..db..astig!!

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Love is always taking risks..you give..you care..you appreciate.

but unsure if something will be back to you..

they always say "love, for you to be loved"..

but love is so unpredictable..you feel and think that it'll be forever but with a single flip you can lose it..

and so i say..the next time you love..

BE PREPARED FOR A LOSS..BE PREPARED TO LOSE.

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anu n b ggwin ko??

2006-11-04T23:25:00.000-08:00

hayy..anu n b to? nde ko na lam kung ano ggwin ko sayo.
. mtgal na ktang kaibigan..cmula pa 2nd yr..nung una nde ko inaashan na mggng kaclose ko ang isang tulad mo..hanggang sa tumgal-tagal..nlaman ko tinuring mo pla akong bestfriend..natuwa ako kxe..bihra sa opposite sex un..hehehe..nag-oopen ka tungkol sa mahal mo..at sagot lng nman ako.."kya mo yan"..hnggang sa umbt sa puntong cnb ko sau mhalaga ka sken..sbe mo nde totoo un..kxe mas nillpitan ko ung kapangalan mo..sbe ko nde ka xa nman ung lumlpt sken..sbe mo "action speaks louder than words"..hayy..pinagpipilitan kong pantay lng nman ang turing ko sa iniong dlwa pero ayaw mo mnwla..hanggang npagod akong pagtalunan ang bagay na yon..lumayo ako..at mas nplapit ako sa kapangalan mo..pero nung mga pgkktaong un..ikaw na mismo ang lumapit sken..sbe mo twagin kitang KAIRI..tpos sorry ka ng sorry pero di ko alam kung bkt..ayown..pumpsok ka na ulit..ngkalapit ulit tayo..ng-usap..ngkulitan..pero nde ko nman inaasahan na sobra..nde ko alam kung bkt nung musikang pinoy...sobrang inalagaan mo ako..binigay mo sakin ung panyo mo nung basang-basa ung mukha ko kakalaro..pinagbawalan mo akong uminom ng ice tea kxe sbe ni kim wag muna..kht lahat cla uminom pinagbwalan mo ako..at sinunod kta..hinwakan mo ang kamay ko na prang..wla lng..anjan ka lng..sobrang nrmdman ko na mhalaga ako sayo..kht di mo sbhn..alam ko na ung ibg sbhn ng mga galaw mo...na prang may isang taong ngmmhal sken..oo inaamin ko umaasa ako..at lalo pang pinatindi nung mga sinulat mo sa libro ko.."wag kang mtkot..di kta iiwan..anjan lng ako sa tabi mo..wag mo lng ssbhn,,na akoy MAHAL mo na rin.."..anong ibg sbhn non?? mahal mo ako? pero nde pren kta mgetz..baka nman sinulat mo lng un dun pero sa 22o lng pra yan dun sa totoong mahal mo..arrrghh..im so in to..im so CLUELESS tlga kht alam ko andme mo na clues..nde ko pren mkuha..bkt klngan mo preng mgselos sa kapangalan mo kung nde na xa ung mahal ng totoong mhal mo? dhl b tlga un sa totoong mhal mo..? o di kaya...(asa nman ata ako) dhl SAKIN?? oo nrmdman ko to pero sndli lng..may mnmhal pa ako..at sobrang spexal xa sken..lumayo ako ng konti pra mkpaghpahinga..mgmove-on sa isa..pero ngyong tpos na ako....prang natotrauma pa ako mgmhal ulit..kya auko muna mrmdman toh sau..dhl bka msktan lng ako..kya nde muna..pero..may ngyre..nung nalink ka sa bestfriend ko ewan ko b kung bkt sobrang nsktan ako..at cguro..un n nga un..un na ang hudyat..mhal na ata kta...sbe mo nde ka na aabsent..pero nde ka pumsok khpon..sbe mo kakain tau sa pizza hut..pero nde ntuloy..pero ok lng skn un..naiintndhan kta..pero sana pumsok ka na..miss na miss na kta..nde k na tumtwag at ngttxt..pag minimiscol ko nman cel mo unattended.. hayy..nde ko na alam ggwin ko..auko lokohin ang srili ko,..cguro mahal na tlga kta..alam ko nman kung cno pren mahal mo..pero prang nguguluhan ako kxe..may nrrmdaman k n b tlga sa bestfriend ko?..isa pa..may nrrmdman k b sken?

AM I TOO LATE? Am I too late to realize that you were always there but I kept looking for another?

Cultural Night...part 2

2006-10-22T07:03:00.002-07:00

here is another set f pics..sorry na late..antgal kxe iupload gling sa phone memory..*wink*

go ma'am abiE!!

si sir MiKE...hehehe...

batch nila kuya harold labuguen..hmm..batch 05 ata to..singing "linger"

the sophomores..hmm..nklimutan ko na ung kanta nila pero cute un...

tintina, jill, kaym, barbie, deb and alli..after the night..(sayang wlang sayawan)

hilig tlga sa kodakan..hehehe...alli, jill, deb, barbie and foon..hehehe..

Cultural Night...ü

2006-10-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

80's at eight... that is the theme of that night..hayy..first time na ngkaroon ng theme..

art, merv, ali, miki and ian...just before start...ü

Rock Baby Rock and High..Go SENIORS!!

Our dear Faculty...ang pinaka-inaabangang presentations...

sayang nde ko nakuhanan ng maayos ung iba..kaya nde ko mailagay..pero mdme ngpresent..ung batches 03, 04,05 at 06...tpos ang sophies at juniors...

andme ring ngpuntang alumni..ung mga grumaduate nung wla pa kme..

msya nman ang lahat..at nkauwi nman ng maayos..kaso..un na ang last nmeng cultural night..i mean..last na cultural night na students kme ng calsci..for the nest years pwd pren nman..kaso nga lng nde na kme students sa calsci nun..alumni na kme..

i'll always cherish these moments..hehehe..

cge..au revoir..

KAILANGAN!!

2006-09-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

KAILANGAN ko ng iwan ang alaala mo..

kaya lahat at titiisin ko maiwasan lng ang mga ngiti mo..

mga bagay sa sadyang ako lng ang gmgwa sau ititigil ko..

mga linyang ikaw lng ang nkpagsabi sa tainga ko..

lahat nga ay pilit kong kklimutan..

kht pa ang ngng pagkakaibigan..

at kaht sobrang komplikado ay handa akong msktan..

gaano man kskt ang mgng klbsan..

hangad ko ang iyong kligayahan..

gusto ko mlamn mo nde ko pngcchan..

ngunit sadyang ngng mapait ang katapusan..

ipilit ko man na ang ndrma ko'y sapat na pra gunwin ang mundo..

nde gnon ang pgmmhal..at alam ko..

pagpaparaya lng ang mggwa ng pusong ito..

sa huling pgkakataon..may hihilingin sana ako..

maaari bng wag mong klimutang may ngmhal sau ng buong puso at pagkatao?

at sana sa pagtatapos ng post na ito..

Maayos akong mkpagpaalam sa pag-ibig na sadyang iningatan ko..

PARA LANG SA'YO..

survey..anyone??

2006-08-07T05:47:00.000-07:00

nkita ko to sa blog ni debie eh..hehehe..cinopy ko lng..(stripper??)

Name that Tune Survey!

Directions: Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title and artist as the answer to the question. No cheating!

Where will I go today?
My happy ending(AL)-----------( tlga pupunta ako sa msya na pgttpos? buti nman..)

How am I feeling today?
ikaw(brenan)--------------(bkt ikaw? nrrmdman ko ikaw??)

Will I get far in life?
Goodbye(juana)-------------(binabara ba ako nung knta? tinanong ko lng kung will i get far sbe nia "goodbye!!")

How do my friends see me?
ALipin(sjham)----------(tlga??huhuhu)

When will I get married?
With a smile(southborder)--------------(xmpre nkasmile pag kinsal!!)

What's my theme song?
HIGh(the speaks)-------------(hiyess nman..)

What is the story of my life?
Miracle(christian bautista)-----------(ngulat ako..gnda eh noh..)

What am I like when asleep?
The way you look at me(christian bautista)-------------(nu kyang kinalaman? ah cguro im like the way you look at me when im not asleep??)

How can I get ahead in life?
Tensionado(soapdish)-----------------(pag cguro may ngsbe skeng "sandali lng..")

What is my best feature?
Director's cut(kamikazee)-------------(bkt nman? mang-iiwan ba ako??)

How is today going to be?
TRUTH(bamboo)-------------------(xmpre ang buhay nkabase sa truth..)

What is in store for you this weekend?
Skater boy(AL)-----------------(huh??)

What is my life like at the moment?
pump it(BLP)---------------(nyak..nu kya un?)

What song describes my secrets?
Alumni Homecoming(PNE)---------------(mssbe ko cguro lhat sa alumni homecoming)

What is my current lover like?
Superman(five for fighting)--------------(hmm..tumpat pa tlga dun eh noh..)

What song will they play at my funeral?:
First LOve(utada hikaru)--------(hala? cno kya ung magpapatugtog nun?)

How does the world see me?
jump(simple plan)---------------(heh..ddnt got it..)

Will I have a happy life?
Torete(moonstar88)----------------(mggng torete ako dhl sa isang guy??)

What does my bf/gf really think of me?
Fall to pieces(AL)-------------(cguro gus2 nia lng akong titigan??)

Will I accomplish my goals in life?
SAbihin mo na(top suzara)--------------(hooo..ewan!)

Will I find true love?
First LOve(utada hikaru)----------------(na nman? oi nde ko yan dinaya ah..OMG..xa na b tlga??)

How do I treat others?
I(6cycle)--------------(hehe i treat others as i would treat myself..)

UPCAT!!

2006-08-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

after 1 week na wlang OL, hehehe..finally tpos na ang UPCAT!! yeah its really difficult but still below pa rn sa expectations ko..ang ineexpect kong UPCAT kxe ung maiiyak na ako dhl wla akong idea kung pano sgutan..or ung last 10 minutes na 20 items pa lng nssgutan ko..hehehe..yanga eh noh..pero at least!! thank GOD at nde ngkatotoo ung mga premonitions ko...

asar lng kxe last batch ako..12:30 ng hapon ng sunday eh kinabukasan may pasok pa? kumusta nman un?

pero enuf na jan sa UPCAT na yan..lets focus ung mga ngyre after..

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AAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! xmpre after na 1 week halos di kau ngusap..(sa 1 week na un umasa ka pa na kakausapin ka man lng nia..or ni hi man..ok na..) xmpre AASA ka tlgang kakausapin ka na nia ulit eh noh,,xmpre kaibigan mo xa...and dats VERY, OBVIOUSLY and PERHAPS kakauspin ka nia,..pero wla tlga eh noh..ang nrinig ko lng ata sa knya eh.."bkt" at "excuse me".. kamusta nman yon eh noh..wla nang sskt pa dun...tpos mkkta mo ikaw buong araw ka pumsok pero ung kakakita nia pa lng agad niang kinausap?? amp e noh.. pero wla nman akong mggwa..kung ayaw nia akong kauspin e di wag..pero mssktan p ren ako..un lng un...

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ON THE OTHER HAND...entirely msya nman ang araw ko..kxe nman..suot nia ung regalo ko eh..at wla ng mas sasaya pa dun..tpos mga 10 moments atang nagtagpo ang mga mata nio..ayyy kakakilig!! hehehe..ang yanga ko eh noh..adik tlga ako..hehehe..xmpre mhal ko xa..tpos biniro nia pa ako..tpos tinanong nia "is shyrr hot?" sabay lagay ng kmay nia dun sa leeg ko..un pla tintnong nia kung may lagnat ako..hehehe napangiti tlga ako ng sobra dun..hnggang ngyon pa nga eh iniicp ko..hayy..mahal pa rn kta kht anong gwin mo..:)

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well un lng po muna for today..cge bb na...

Bleu...

2006-07-17T04:34:00.001-07:00

hayy..gnon na b tlga kta kmhal? oo minsan nde mo ako pnpnsn..akala ko nga la ka pkelam sken..pero kpag nrrng ko na ung boses mo..prang nwwla lhat nung mga sad moments na un..ung prang..hayy..anjan ka nman..cge ok lng umasa..sanay na ako...alam ko pggng martir 2..pero wla na akong mggwa...mhal ko tlga xa..kht ilang beses pa ako mag-move on..bblik at bblik pren..

sbe nga ni debie.."bakit nga kaya sa tuwing lalayo ako s knya. i always found myself coming back to him."..prang gnon ang nrrmdman ko..kya..mnsan auko na mag-effort..kxe..ngppgod lng ako..

alam ko may mhal xang iba..at cnb nia nman sken un..
nde ko lam kung bkt ok lng..

hayy..gnon na b tlga kta kamahal?

ULAN...

2006-07-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

ULAN..ULAN..hayy kelan ka kya titigiL? pwd bng...ulan ka muna..pero klngan wag mlakas ah..pra nman mkpsok ako..pra matagal kme sa loob ng skul..pra sa room lng kmeng lhat...hehehe..slmat ulan ah... sa lhat ng mga bagay na tinuro mo sken..tinuro mo skeng umiyak..tinuro mo skeng mgdla ng payong..pra nman may maprotektahan akong tao....tinuruan mo akong msktan..dhl sa tuwin nbbsa ako prang gus2 ko ng sumilong..gus2 ko ng umiwas..pero nde mo mggwa hnggat wlang bubong..

ako..sa tuwing umuulan sa buhay ko...nhhrapan akong humanp ng bubong. minsan nga akala ko nsa dagat ako..tpos wla pang mga isla sa plgid ko..pero kht an gnon..kht wla akong mktang silungan..sa buhay ko mrme nmang may payong..mrmeng handang pasilungin ako kht pansamantala..kht na mbsa din cla kxe dlwa kme dun sa payong..hnda pa ren clang tulungan ako..kya iyon ang pinagpapaslmat ko..lagi mang may ulan at bagyo..pag meron namng hndang tumulong at magsakripisyo pra sayo..prang.."cge ok lng..anjan nman kau..kay..let's go!"

slmat sa batch ko..cla ung mga tinutukoy kong tao..mga taong mpagbigay..hndang msktan pra sken..hayy..tlgang iiyak ako sa graduation..bka nga hagulgol pa eh..sobrang memorable ng 2003-2007 ko dhl sa inyo..slmat..hbangbuhay ko kaung iingatan..

JE T' AIME...

2006-07-13T05:39:00.000-07:00

hayy..eto na nman ako..nagboblog..lang mgwa..ang yanga ko nga eh..kala ko absent ako..kxe lang OL kninang umaga..normally kxe nggugurup msg pa cla pra lng ipagsgwan na msya..."Woooohoooo!! lang pasok!!" eh knina..nagOL ako..wlang tao...

wla akong mgwa..pero aus lng..mdme akong npag-icpicp na bgay...hayy..lge nman cgurong gnon pag lang pasok...tpos umuulan pa...prng super sad ng day..pero isa itong challenge..kung kya ko bng magsurvive sa isang araw na nde ko man lng mrng ang boses nia..mkta ang mukha nia..msbhan xa nga.."ui mhalaga ka sken.."...isa tong buong araw na ang ksma ko..srili ko..kptid ko at mama ko...mnsan ung health encyclopedia pa..nkkbgot...pero pag naiicp ko xa prang.."hayy oo nga..bukas mkkta ko rn xa...mssbe kong..musta na? ingat ka ha..."..^_^

well hnggang d2 na lng muna..bb na..

2006-07-12T05:37:00.000-07:00

IT'S BEEN MONDAY SINCE I FEEL THIS STRANGE....

No one ever knows what I'm feeling, even myself couldn't figure it out. I've tried a lot of is-it?-tests but still can't come up with a conclusion.

I dont exactly know what I was thinking, or even who it was, but I came up with some strong passages.

" ...My..its been a long while since i've talked to you...but i thAnk god for everyday I see you in my way. i cant Help but smile when your shiny eyes met mine. i Always admit i think of you in every second my mind permits me to. at anywhere i Look, your face is the one i imagine. Keeping myself in touch with reality, i always find myself walking to where you are. when someone spoke of your name i cant help but to feel something wIThin me. you mAy think i aM stupid to write this wAy,but my Hands can't help it. you didn't reAlly have to repLy on this passage, but please read it until the very end. ive always waNted to say these things to you..but when i see you face soMething mAkes me stop, as if the world is not turning wHen im woth you. i dont even wAnt to move, i just want to stare at you. just Looking at your face makes my heart beat fast, and so what even more if im holding your very hand? maybe i'll die..no of course not...liKe a rose, thats how you are treatIng me, and because of That, you becAme so special to me. you made me feel that the world needs me, and that im important even in my smallest deeds...."

i was so surprised to see what is in there. It is really coded, and im shocked. Have you got it? well thaT's it for today, i hope you can help me.

2006-07-11T05:37:00.000-07:00

hayy...can't explain pero..tlgang planadong mlungkot ang arw na ito...
khpon ko pa alam na sobrang mlulungkot ako...dhl nde ko nkta ang taong sobrang ngppsya sken..
well nde ko cnsbng nde ako nppsya ng iba kong kaibigan..kaso ung taong un kxe ang ngpapakumpleto ng araw ko....hehehe..pero nde ko nman xa masisisi..klngan nia un eh.. T_T

hayy..enough na nga sa sobrang klungkutan..pero msya din nman ang araw na ito...hayy..
tungkol nman sa mhal ko..ansya tlga..prang ngaun nageexist na ako sa mundo nia..
nklgay sa locker ko ang libro nia..tpos..kninang physics mgkatabi kme..^_^
ung mga notes sa MAPEH sken xa kumha..tpos binabati nia nman ako...hayy...sa mga gngwa nia nde ko maiiwasan na nde umasa..sna lng sanay na akong msktan pra nde na ako
mxdo pang mg-alala..

at isa pa pala..ang gaan ng araw na ito..ang konti ng ggwin..ang konti ng asaynments...
wla nmang mbigat na gnwa knina sa skul..kya ang gaan ng pag-uwi ko..

well un lng muna for today...

le sommeil bien ce soir....ma princesse.....

2006-07-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

today's day was an awesome but a very tiring one..msya kxe malamig na ang room..nde na nakakasagabal ang init pra mkpag-aral ako ng maayos..at may ngwa na rin ako sa IP nmen..hayy...tpos knina pumunta kme kila josam..hehehe..ang sya nga eh..ang kulit kxe ni joshua..

pero still..meron akong mga nde inaasahang pngyyre..amp..gnun na lng b tlaga ako sau? wla na ba tlga akong hlga? ni simpleng hi lng cguro nde mo msbe..o kht man lng ty sa lahat ng gngwa ko pra sau..pero sno nga ba ako para isumbat sau ang lhat ng itO? mas mhlga nman sau ang lge mong ksma eh..at wla ng tatalo pa dun..hayy..cguro nga mxdo lng ako umasa..kung bkt kxe sobrang pinapahalghan kta kht nde ko mrmdman na pnapahalagahan mo rn ako? nde sa nghhnap ako ng resulta sa bwat ggwin ko..pero ang simpleng logic lng na..mag mbuti ang input..mbuti rn ang output..pero bkt prang sken ders sumtin wrong with the process..hayy..kung mbbsa mo man to sna nman..amp...hayy....cguro nga "fill-in" lng ako kung ikukumpra sa lhat ng kaibigan mo.prang..pangfill lng ako ng space pra mdme...nde b? hayy..sa tingin ko prang sinyang ko lng ang 2 taon pra pagtuunan ka ng pansin..at dhl dun kht pg-aaral ko sobrang naapektuhan..buti nga ngyon..mejo mlayo na tayo..kya nkkpagexcel na ako kht papaano..

alam ko nman kht mglit pa ako sayo ng isang milyong beses..wla akong mggwa..nde ko mttlo ang nrrmdman kong "care" pren sau..konting apology mo lng aus na..konting ngiti lng mula sa mukha mo prang nkklimutan ko na lht ng gnwa mo..pero prang ngsswwa na rn ako...space space muna..nde muna kta kkauspn..pra nman mthmk ako ngyong mga pnhong toh..nssktan nren kxe ako sa mga cnsb mo..kya mas mbuti ng nde ko mrnig ang mga cnsb mo..pra nde ako nssktan.......

hmp..amp..hayy..buhay...aww

2006-07-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

well..as my first post..i only like to say hi to the persons eho are patient to visit this blog of mine..

JE VOUS BEACOUP AIME...

which means I love you so much..

well..til here..le sommeil bien ce soir..(sleep well tonyt)

je t'aime..<3

Univ Life

~simplicity...

Graduation?

drabble 5

drabble 4

my mind has turned cancerous..

errrr.

wala lang.

on-the-spot poem writing.

TWIST.

my melancholy.

poem-poeman

Illness during exam.

drabble

rawr mode.

siggy..

with 6 months left..

1 month?

PILOSOPIYA NG PAG IBIG AYON KAY BOB ONG

the future ain't scary..

Paris at night.

+ to memory :

Balloon.

here it goes.

at school.

drabble 3.

drabble 2.

drabble

school days are here again..

the 08-01 total solar eclipse~

Rajipuris (Tennis no Oujisama on the Radio)

Revive

Hiatus

*smiles*

Birthday

First day of school

Scold

Pharmacy

Dumbledore's army.

the mysterious play

oops. di pa tapos.

it begins here.

.

RED DAY.ü

nocturne=night.

Philippine Independence.

the side of life

my life's weird moments.

A Confession

tamad mag-post.

heaven by your side.

...

the blog. amp wla ako maicp na title.

THE SCIENTIST.

*surfs the net*

haha.

buhay canadian?

mlaoginse?? jokes..

the feeling...

aLoNe...

wahehehehe..sayanesz...

LOVE...is an unending feeling..

anu n b ggwin ko??

Cultural Night...part 2

Cultural Night...ü

KAILANGAN!!

survey..anyone??

UPCAT!!

Bleu...

ULAN...

smiles

surfs the net